[allieautopsy]

I love him so much and now it's all over. He left nothing but memories,
each one heavy as tons. Every little thing reminds me of him. The radio
playing his favorite song, driving down shaw, the tattoo on my ribs.
The world is full of him but my own world is empty now.
He didn't even hear my heart breaking.
He said he still loves me but doesn't stand to be with me
any more. It's my own fault.
He was all that I wanted and now he's gone, gone, gone
And my world is gray and cold and my life is full of tears
And my heart hurts physically when I think of him
And my mind is strong and tells me it had to end anyway.
it hurts so deep down inside
How can it hurt so much? so deep?
And I just wish for a little time without any feelings, just a little time
without this pain and this hurt that caused my wish to die.
Declare it as an accident
because my eyes were too drowned with tears
to see what I did
Declare it as a coincidence
because my mind was too occupied with thoughts
to realize what I did
Declare it as a murder
because he was the one
who broke my heart apart
The most painful death can't be as hurting as life without you, my darling.

[LookingforCalm]

Hey there. Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. You're reeling from the pain of breaking up, having your heart broken, and you need some time to heal. Allow yourself this time.

I'm so sorry for your pain. I know the pain of break-ups - I'm divorced myself. But don't let the light that shines within be dimmed due to this setback. As much as it hurts, it is a setback. But don't hurt yourself or do anything. As cliche as it sounds, this too shall pass.

Take care of yourself. Email me if you like.

[allieautopsy]

thanks...
its taking everything i am not to do something stupid.
this is the first relationship i actually faced my fears and put myself in fully.
i let go of my safety net and was compleatlyy vulnerable
and then it all went to hell and im left here alone..

[sugahorse1]

(((allie))) do you have a close friend to talk to? Or even better - a T? I know it's painful. You need to spread your wings again and find the things that make you happy. Things you may have forgotten and left behind while you were in a relatinoship.
Establish your own identity again

[lovefew-fearnone]

It all went to hell?
Yes we were fighting, but that was nothing new.
The only thing new was you found someone better to move on too and let go of me.
The problem is he wasn't me.
He fought like me but he didn't love, live, talk, or act like me.
The problem with this is I'm still here.
The problem with this is your still there.
In his arms, in his world, in his heart.
You traded me in for a new model
what was I supposed to do? Sit there enduring the pain?
Or do exactly what you did and just step back and away and move on to the next.
You think this doesn't hurt me as well? You think I didn't have the thoughts of returning to hell? I was already there, anything could have been an improvement.
But you see it's not you, you're not the reason I can't be with you.
It's everything that was said and everyone who said it. Your closest friends kicking me when I was down and trying to get back up to get you back. Your friends who answer your phone and lie to me. Your friends messaging me telling me how bad I treated you.
If I treated you so bad why would you come back?
If I hurt you so much why do you stand at my door holding out the pieces of your heart, which we both destroyed, offering them back to me?
Life is hell and every time you said just wait, this isn't forever. The only thing I could think was it has to be because I can't survive another day.
But you could, you did. Your strong.
Like I said babe I'm still here.
It's just another question though.
Are you still there?

I love you. Now and Always

[allieautopsy]

you know i am jonathan.

[youOme]

Im sad for you because I know how you feel. Everything everyone says is meaningless right now because your hurting so bad, but I swear to this, time will heal you.