[salukigirl]

So it's been over a month since I talked to my dad last. Christmas to be exact. And a couple weeks ago I was talking to my brother about how it would be really nice to have my dad back. We used to talk for hours and he knew me better than anyone. But now it's like he doesn't know me at all. And I feel like I have to have something important to talk about to call him bc if I don't the conversation lasts about 3 minutes.

So I don't know if my brother told him what I said but he called me today and we talked for about 12 minutes. I know that might not seem like a long conversation for most people but that's an eternity for my dad it seems. And it wasn't even for a reason. He just said he wanted to see how I was doing. It was weird. I could even hear his wife in the background talking to him and trying to divert his attention but this time he actually ignored her. Typically when I call she butts in after like 4 minutes with something unrelated just trying to get him off the phone.

I know it's tiny but maybe he is actually trying now? He even asked me about my epilepsy and how my meds are doing. He hasn't asked me about that in months. Just nice to know that he still thinks about me even if it is only every couple months. I just want my dad back.

Hello, salukigirl. Maybe this is the start of something better? I hope so.

[salukigirl]

Thanks Byz. I can only hope. It's been like this for about 6 years now so it's gotten to the point where I don't really even feel like I have a dad anymore. I hope this is him trying a little harder.