[pkaseypkaseypkasey]

My Mother.
She is always drunk.
Always yelling.
Always making me feel like I'm worthless.
She forced me into therapy once, and after two sessions, she decided I was faking all the cuts and all the sadness for attention.
She never once acted like she honestly cared what happened to me.
What she should have done was NOT listen to me, and she should have done everything in her power to make sure I was okay. And because she didn't, I almost killed myself. And sometimes I relapse into then, and I almost try again. Sometimes I just can't take her.

[Warrioress]

I think she does care about you, but is too unbalanced herself to help you. Not all people can be strong and supportive of others. Maybe she's like that; not strong enough. Be gentle with her AND with yourself.

Take care

[Can't Stop Crying]

You deserve to feel loved and cared about. I'm sorry you are going through this.

[Leed]

Hi ~ I can certainly understand. Both my parents were alcoholics. It sounds like your Mom has a drinking problem. I can't call her an alcoholic -- only she can put that label on herself, but it sure sounds like she is.

Alcoholism is a disease -- it's a progressive and fatal disease, but it CAN be stopped if the person wants to stop drinking more than anything else. But no amount of begging, pleading, nagging is going to make her stop. She's going to have to stop on her own, when SHE wants to. I pray she wants to very soon. I hope she reaches out to AA and gets the help she needs.

I know that you are hurt -- I had to go thru that hurt too. My parents used to fight terribly - they even got into physical fights, and those were horrible. Back then, no one called the cops -- neighbors just minded their own business. I wish they had called them - maybe things would have been different.

Alcoholics don't know what's going on around them - I should say, they CHOOSE not to pay attention to what's going on. They drink when the going gets rough. They are NOT responsible adults -- they shirk their duties as parents and as employees. They are lousy at both.

I would advise you to talk to your counselor at school. Perhaps then she can get in touch with Childrens' Services -- and you might be removed from the home. You don't have to live like that -- in fact you SHOULDN'T live like that. Talk to your counselor. He/she will help you. God bless you. Hugs, Lee

[IceCreamKid]

Originally Posted by pkaseypkaseypkasey

My Mother.
She is always drunk.
Always yelling.
Always making me feel like I'm worthless.
She forced me into therapy once, and after two sessions, she decided I was faking all the cuts and all the sadness for attention.
She never once acted like she honestly cared what happened to me.
What she should have done was NOT listen to me, and she should have done everything in her power to make sure I was okay. And because she didn't, I almost killed myself. And sometimes I relapse into then, and I almost try again. Sometimes I just can't take her.

Don't "take her". Go to Al-anon or Ala-teen (I'm not sure how old you are) and find out how to cope with your life. You don't need to internalize your mother's drunken crud. I wish someone had supported me 30-40-50 years ago but no one did. I support you now to discover your intrinsic worth as a human being; your place in the world; your happiness and well-being. You're a worthwhile person, worthy of being loved. Live your life, joyfully. That is my prayer for you. I send you