It shouldn't bother me

I have no idea where to stick this. It can fit into so many places. Just seems like this is the best place for me to be at the moment.

I never asked her for much of anything. I never asked her to do anything that she didn't want to do. When she made it very clear there were things she didn't want or was not interested in, I respected that. However, all of the things she said she didn't want or like have suddenly become ok. She is doing things she always told me she didn't want to do or didn't like. Was I not good enough to be interested in them for? Did she never want to spend time with me during those things and knew I would respect her not wanting to?

I am having some issues with her new relationship as it is but it has nothing to do with us not being together. That part I am ok with. We grew in different direction and that is all good. What really gets to me right now though is how totally different she is with this new relationship. Is she doing what he wants because she thinks that will make him stick around? Does she care more about him so these things are suddenly enjoyable for her?

This shouldn't bother me. Quite frankly if she is happy then I am absolutely fine. I am over her for the most part and fully accept the fact that we are not together nor will we ever be again. But I do still have some issues with the way it ended, why it ended and everything that has happened since. Perhaps if I just get through all of my own issues it won't matter anymore. Just a little confused and hurt by it all

Hello, Dark_Dreams. You are grieving.

I'm not sure grief is the correct term. Evaluating the traditional stages of grief, I have passd through all of those and am not holding onto what we once had. It was fun while it lasted but we moved on and that's fine.

What is happening however is my connecting certain things with past issues that are many years old. Growing up, I felt as though (notice I said felt and not that any of this is fact) I was not good enough for certain things. When it comes to my family, I did not get what one would have expected to receive from family. Other people did get those things but I did not. I kind of thought I was over most of that but this current situation has brought some of that back. Perhapse all of this has nothing really to do with her but my own issues.