[bgdvk85]

hello everybody!
I want to share a few thoughts here and here they are..
I have no problem, or I think I have no problem, with me deciding I have no real friends, thus I try to stay away of creating friendships or relationships. Although, I think, I am generally nice to people, sharing, caring and everything. But obviously, I am trying to maintain a status of having no real friends. Also, I believe this is not anything bad, anything - I repeat. I just think and believe that at some point in my life thing will slightly twist in a good direction regarding me finding real friends. Let me tell you, why I think I do not have some right now. Because I believe I am enough of a person, to deal with my life without making other people part of my own life. Secondly, I have my family, or part of them are really present in my life. I think I just developed enough personality to be free of social rules that were ruling over me before. Now I am just happy for who I am and living the life in a way I can and want. It is just this note of not having real friends that I know is better if it change. But since I build my character, or I believe so, I am handling everything very good on my own and think that it will be the extra emotion to somebody else lives. Since I value freedom, I think I stay away of people, because I believe as I want to be free spirit, thus other people do not need my spirit. Or I have not found the people who really want me in their life. Ok, my main thing was: I feel fine about my life, but I have no so called friends, and it is better if I hope I will have a few when I am ready . I think I even answered myself. This leads to trust issues within myself.. I am not gonna go into the relationship field, since I have no relationship skills build overtime. My relationships were within short period of time like a big explosion in my life for a happy time. After the happy time is done, all was leading to me developing me again in order to be who am I today. I feel very loved and happy for who I am, but I know I can try to learn another skill unknown ... who wants to share a few thoughts with me. on any topic, i just decided to free this thought. I try to not leave around fears, i am so not willing to create a whole illusion world full of fears just because i experienced a few negative emotions.life is so much better when all the negativity is transformed into me being happy. so that is why i am happy because of me and what i believe makes me happy. which totally again say that i can be happy without even friends, but this was my question, do you or not believe that most people can be happy without the so called accepted rule that people need many friends to be considered .... i don't know, i think my inner fear knows the word.. anyway. please share a few thoughts here. i am greatly normal i think, i even say to myself to stop really pretend thinking about stuff i never changed. let's say i never tried to be the friend to be called real friend, although i am a good person and do whatever i can. i never tried to stay in a relationship for long time, because of the osbtacles that normally ended the relationships i was in. i am just my life not the people around me . ok, i read self-help books so guys, i know i am happy and ok, but i read many of you have issues we all have, how do we change the venting part to the point where we all say WE ARE HAPPY, WE ARE OUR LIFE, WE DO NOT WANT FEAR BUILD IN OURSELVES. something like that... anybody with me because I am

Hello, bgdvk85. Whatever floats your boat. Good luck.