[Miss Laura]

I live at home with my Twin Sister and my Parents. I am 26. I moved out and then had to move back in due to no money. I got my diagnosis of BP late last year and I have been managing to control my angry side and depress and mania. I have hidden them all so as not to upset anyone. I use to have really bad anger and it all that jazz.... won't bore you all.

Today I have had a great day chilling out with friends and then going for a massage. I came home for dinner and my Sister starts bugging me- we tend to bug each other in a joking kind of way. However she took it to another level and I got injured. It really hurt and I was really angry with her. I swore at her ( I know I shouldn't have) my Dad heard and he got ME into trouble and said I had to be nice. I said to him my Sister was the reason why I was upset and he shouted at me and told me to grow up. My Sister started shouting at me and calling me names. So its me who still get's into trouble for HER shouting at ME..... how does that work???????

So I storm off to my room and my Dad decides to confront me.... he should know by now this is how I become extremely angry but he proceeded to come to my room. I told him to go away but he refused. I held my door shut and he bashed my door in pushing me out the way and into my room. So he and I are in my room with him shouting at me. I said to him to get out he refused and said "what you going to do about it" I said "nothing" and walked out my room and down the stairs, he tried to throw the duster and the polish at me he is a complete idiot. I locked myself into the bathroom. He is shouting at me like blue murder while my Mum stood there and did nothing. My Sister is having a ball in the kitchen as it's ME who is getting into trouble NOT her.

Now my Dad has stormed out the house, my Mum is slamming doors and my Sister is also slamming doors and throwing things at my door ie the polish my Dad tried to throw at me WTF!!!!!!

I want to get out of the house but I have nowhere to go. I nearly s/h'ed I still want to. Sick of it all

Oh ye and my Dad shouted I should be "better" since it's ME who is getting therapy....... WHAT therapy is this???? I see a CPN and GP every month and my Psych every 6 weeks. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Xeneon]

Sounds like everyone was in the wrong! That sucks that your getting the heat, when there is other people in the wrong too. Your dad was actting really childish! Throwing a duster or polish at you, come on thats just stupid. Find something to do, like go shopping or go out with friends. Even lock yourself in your bedroom. Do something to get away from them for awhile. Hope things start letting up. Take Care!!!

[Miss Laura]

Hey Xeneon,

No-one is able to come out. I think I might go shopping but I don't need anything. I am just really angry. Wish I could lock myself in my room that is my dream

[Miss Laura]

Still in the bad books. I kinda hurt myself last night. I got really angry. I feel depressed today. I just feel like crying but I can't or won't unsure which one it is. Had to put my mask on as I was out with my MH group today to the cinema. I eventually got into the film after about 30 mins I just felt miserable.

Home now and am heading out soon. Going for a walk along the beach with a friend.

Upset cause 1 of my so-called colleagues birthday is today and she is having a night out on Friday. She hasn't invited me but has invited people/colleagues who she never speaks to. Why do I bother. I have just deleted her from Facebook. I give up

[Xeneon]

im sorry u couldn't find anybody but i hope shopping was good.