[ok1988]

I recently moved to the States for college, my mom and my sister traveled with me here to help me settle. However, they weren't here on a permanent basis and they left recently to my home country.

When they were here, my sister helped me with a lot of things; driving, unpacking, banking, pretty much all the fundamentals. And my mom, she did things all mothers would do to their youngest child - annoying (at the time) advice.

Before they left, my mom gave me an envelope and said it was for my birthday, I opened it when I got home from the airport and it was money (as a gift) and a letter. In the letter she expressed how she's really going to miss me because even in my home country she rarely sees me (I live with my dad). She also said that I say hurtful things to her, but she knows I don't mean to hurt her. I cried when I read the letter and again this morning when I read it again.

I feel really guilty because when my mom and sister were here, I kept getting angry with them for some reason. They kept giving me advice on driving, unpacking, etc and I often yelled at them. Although now I realized that they cared for me - my sister even bought me stuff for my house.

I guess the feeling of guilt sprouts from the fact that I don't think my mom knows I love her. I'm a really private person and I'm embarrassed to tell my mom that I love her, which I now realize is pretty stupid. I do feel a bit better when I let her hug me and kiss me on the cheek before she left.

They're on the plane now, but I feel really depressed and guilty, but I know I have to go on with life. Sorry for the long story and hopefully I can get good advice from here.

Welcome to the Community, ok1988. Being alone and away from home has a way of causing reflection. You might use the guilt you feel to remedy what you find embarrassing. Sending thank you cards or notes to both your mother and sister is a good place to start. You really do not have to say a lot if you do not want to. Simply get the point across you appreciated their help and care about them.