[moonbeam2]

today i got up in the am to see my husband & kids off to work & school ,it was good i was happy ,went smooth ,when they left like useual i lay back down to sleep more or take a nap,well when i got up the cabel was shut off ,then i was like **** there is not enough money in the bank,earlier this week i paid buy check the waste water & reg water ,they came to $240. total ,well they didnt go threw yet & they had it for about a week so i called the water company to see when they were going threw it was today i thought i could do that thing rob peter to pay paul but that didnt work for me ,i texed my husband to tell him the cabel was shut off thank god for texes ,lol kinda ,so he sends me a tex that reads [k] nothing elese ,so now im watching the clock i tex him & told him to tell me when you get to bank,i get another [k]with me not working makes me feel bad i start beating myself up about it all day im watching the clock,the last thing i want to happen is the kids comming home from school & finding out its been shut off ,i keep looking at the clock antisipatiting when he is going to put it in ,well kids get home at 3 no money yet so i gotta tell them they took it good didnt even fase them ,im squrmining knowing that the bank closes at 4 pm ,its gets to be 3;30 & the 3;45 & then 3;55 & then 3;58 i tex hime & he calls me & says i put money in bank ,feeling scared {mind you we dont fight or he never hits me or anything like that]i just felt in some sorta way i let him down because i pay the bills & i take on the burden of things going wrong ,he works in construction ind so its not like he gets paid every friday say nothing normal about paydays ,so now i dont know if he put a check in bank that needs to be cleared first or not so now i gotta wait till he comes home to ask him & he said oh go ahead you can pay it ,so i did it was turned on & it was all good ,but me being stressed out about it made me wannna run & hide in my bedroom for the rest of the night ,so i did ,i was watching my show 1of many & he comes up ,a bit awalkward i may ad ,then he came back down he was just going to bed & i told him how i felt & he made some kind of remark about try to squeeze $1 dollar into $2 dollars,i didnt really get it but i think it was rude !do you think that is me feeling bad about not working at this time or do you think he feels bad he cant contribute enough to get us threw ,i dont like feeling like that & i dont think i should have to ,i just dont know how to change my fears ? can you advise me how or what to do please ? moonbeam2

[IceCreamKid]

If money is tight have you thought about cutting back on the cable? While I know children enjoy watching tv, it really wouldn't hurt them to do other things like study, play outside, read, play boardgames, or do arts and crafts. If you could lower your bills, I think you'd see your level of stress go down.

[moonbeam2]

Originally Posted by IceCreamKid

If money is tight have you thought about cutting back on the cable? While I know children enjoy watching tv, it really wouldn't hurt them to do other things like study, play outside, read, play boardgames, or do arts and crafts. If you could lower your bills, I think you'd see your level of stress go down.

i would love to do that yesterday i was so upset but kept it to myself somewhat ,you are right cause me & my kid sat down & was practising signatures like he was trying to copy mine & vice versa it was neet to bad i was stressed out to enjoy it at the time all i can enjoy is the memories of it cause the cabel is back on i dont know if my husband would go for haveing it shut off or cut back,i dont like tv much grant you i have my shows i like to watch but i feel it gets in the way of good old family time,i seen it yesterday !