[girl108]

I have social anxiety and depression, I am 18 years old. I have had social anxiety since I was almost 3. When i was 16 I was put on medications and saw a therapist for 5 months. It didn't help me. So when i was 17 I was put in a research study for 5 months in a town an hour and a half away and we would drive up once a week so that i could participate in the study with my therapist. After those 5 months I shortly fell back through again and when I turned 18 I was hospitalized as a mental hospital patient for two months on my own, 6 hours away. I am now taking medication again 300 mg of effexor. Its been 5 months since ive been there and I am currently at home now living with my parents and younger sister. I feel like my parents put too much pressure on me and expect so much from me. I feel like they don't understand how much I have been through and how much I am trying. They tell me that "I make no effort, they don't see me trying, all you do is sleep all day, watch tv, and go on the internet." If i wasn't trying then I wouldn't have lived in a hospital for two months. My dad has told me to get a life, go outside. He has told me he doesn't care about me, that he is sick to death of me, that he is tired of my ********, that I should move out of the house and my mom agrees with him. They don't listen to me when I try to explain them something they always have to be right. They do not know how to communicate with me, and I want them to be supportive, instead of just yelling at me and making me feel worse about myself. It's as if they don't think I am actually mentally ill. They don't know how hard it is for me just to do simple things. Last night my dad yelled at me, I cried all night and I ended up cutting myself.

[Yoda]

I am so sorry your parents don't realize what you are going through.

I hope you find support here.