[Judith22]

My brother(1) is home for a month and he's an obnoxious jerk. My other brother (2) is sensitive and feels put down by him. Today, brother 2 exploded and came down on me because of this: I felt put down by something he (2) had said to me and he felt that it was an attack on his character becuse he wasn't trying to offend me. He said such mean horrible things just now. How He doesn't like being caught up with ppl like me bc I just hurt them, how he thinks I'm unstable, I apologized earlier in the day when it happened and he said: I'm offended that you would think that I still care about something so trivial. But then he exploded on me, when I was trying to defend him in an argument with brother 1. I hope what he said isn't true. I hope that when I do get friends, they don't just look at me like I'm a freak and never talk to me again when I take something the wrong way. God, I don't think I even know how to socialize anymore its been so long. I think I need to believe in myself more. And not pay attention to the assholes. I do take things the wrong way sometimes, but sometimes I'm taking it the right way and ppl are just like, oh you're so sensitive. It's not like I explode or anything either. Or abuse ppl or give ppl silent treatment I don't do that. I want to get away from teh ppl making me feel bad about myself and surround myself with good understanding people. I'm not desperate for a boyfriend anymore, after what happened with my last date. That's good I think. I used to be so desperate. He said sometimes I feel like I'm walking on eggshells around you. Then he left. He didn't even stay around to get to know me or let me explain that I was intimidated by him and that I wasn't sure if he was right for me. He seemed controlling. I felt like he had to be inc ontrol when I was with him. This post must seem so cluttered. Sorry to everyone reading.

hi, judith...i'm sorry that you're having problems with the brothers. sounds like brother # 2 needs a good shaking. family members can really hurt us. they know us better than anyone else does.

just try to keep on your path and you'll find friendship that will be enriching. sometimes it's hard to find the right "mix", but it can be done. good luck, xoxox pat

[Judith22]

Thanks for thinking the path I'm on is OK. Thanks for your advice and support fayerode.

~Judith