[jnt1989]

So, yesterday I finally told my mom that I've been going to therapy. I didn't tell her how long or anything. She asked where I had gone, and I just told her. But first I told her that she couldn't tell dad and she couldn't ask a bunch of questions or make a big deal out of it. I didn't think she could not ask questions or make a big deal, but she actually didn't. So, I was relieved of that because I was afraid she would freak out and be overdramatic about it.
Well, I've been trying to let her know what I'm feeling and that it's bothering me lately. I think I might be bipolar to be honest, and my therapist has mentioned that it could be possible a few times. I don't think she gets how bad it's bothering me, though. I mean, I can deal with it, but I'm thinking I should probably do something about it before it gets worse. I don't know how to tell her, hey, I think I might should see a psych about it. Because I have no insurance and have a few medical bills I'm still trying to pay off, and I really don't want to add to those. I would rather wait 'till I get those paid off (which will be in a few months if nothing comes up). But I'm worried that if I don't try to do something about this now, it might get worse and then I might not have a choice.
It's hard for me to talk to anybody about what's going on, even my mom. And I don't want to tell her too much and her completely freak out and start worrying about me all the time. And I don't want them to become so completely involved that it becomes their main focus and it causes problems at home. But I don't think she's getting the point I've been trying to make that my mood swings are really starting to get to me and there are times when I just can't take it.

I just don't know what to do. Any advice on how I could talk to her and get her to understand without having to tell her EVERYTHING?

[Leed]

If your mood swings are frequent and severe, chances are she's ALREADY quite worried, and she might be thinking that you're doing something worse than you are, such as on drugs or something! LOL I'm glad you told her you're seeing a therapist -- at least she isn't thinking worse stuff -- but I'm sure she's already worried enough and by NOT telling her what's going on, her imagination is undoubtedly going wild and she's even more worried. if you told her the truth, I'm sure it would put her mind at ease, so she isn't thinking other things that are horrible. Mothers worry something awful anyway, and when their kids don't tell them everything, they think the worst!

Give your Mom some credit -- she'll be okay with what you tell her. I'm sure she'll handle it ok -- but by NOT telling her what's going on, it's much harder on her and she's thinking all kinds of terrible things. She undoubtedly loves you very much and is afraid something terrible is wrong with you. Being BiPolar is something that can be dealt with -- I'm sure she'll be relieved!

Please take care & God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Nams]

All I can say is huge hugz its never easy to talk about things like this, But you are off to a great start by opening up to her. I would tend to agree with Lee. I feel tho that right now YOU do need to come first, even for now. You don't have to tell Mom everything....just tell her that you are having some issues that you can't discuss right now, tell her that when you understand better what/if/how she can help you you will let her know. Just from reading your mentions of Mom and Dad I get the feeling that you care deeply about them, they will understand and may even surprise you with what they can/would do for you.

Hugz
Nams

[jnt1989]

Yeah, I understand what you're saying. Thanks...

[jnt1989]

So, I ended up talkin' to mom tonight. We were both drinking (pretty heavily tonight) but I think she understands that I need to be able to handle this myself, but I would like her support as I decide I need it. I finally said that I don't know what to do and she pretty much told me that I should do what I need to. Whatever I feel is right. So, yeah, I've tested the waters and I think she understands enough to have the conversation sober. I think it will turn out well and she will be supportive whatever it is I decide I need to do.