processing recent breakup with bipolar boyfriend

oh...and sorry I don't know what MI means!

interesting. I could see some of him in that description....but also me! I don't mind being alone, but I do have abdonnment issues if I get close to someone, it is important for them to make me feel safe. Well, I think that is normal I might just have more fear of it happening.

MI= mental illness sorry

rgb11 -

I cannot even begin to explain to you how much the relationship with your [ex] boyfriend and his behaviors parallel those of my ex. I have been constantly thinking and laboriously searching for clarity to his erratic behavior (which is an UNDERSTATEMENT). It's almost as if I wrote your story and the description of your ex was also my ex. I have allowed him to hurt me and disrespect me so many times that I feel ridiculous even obsessing over answers and still hoping he comes back, not to mention at the same time, realizing how demolished my self concept is.

Would be great to connect on this (yes, I know, I need to move on, but I think you can maybe relate to the feeling that you feel stuck and want to so badly get over this but feel as if you no longer even have control over yourself).

Sorry to hear we both, along with others, have been victims of this.

rgb 11 -
Thank you so much for your posts (and to all that have answered). I have a BP boyfriend (not on meds) and it really helped to read what you experienced. It could have been me writing what you wrote. I'm trying to learn what would be best to do in my relationship with him. We fight/break up about every 2 weeks, sometimes more often. It is such a hard road. He is always very apologetic, but the words he uses when he's mad are just like someone punched me.