[irishpackerfan]

Its werid. I usually have a girl that I have massive crush or someone I really want to date. But recently ive been looking back at my past history with women and its kinda just an epic hollywood gore movie. 6 girlfriends 5 of them cheated. One was secretly with my best friend for 6 months when I was dating her for 2 months. There were 2 that left me for friends. The girl I loved the most didnt treat me right and my friends would always pick on me for being in love with her. Now shes with all of my friends. I get the werid story that when one of my friends was having sex with her he peed in her. Its like O I used to be in love with that girl. Then its a pain in the as to meet new girls because everyone has someone (good or bad). Then I start to wonder if I really suck this bad that I can only get girls younger than me and usally can't keep any for more than 2 weeks.

I usally need some kind of affection cuz I never get it at home but for the last couple of months I just havent even had a thought of being with anyone. Girls will approach me and flirt and stuff but I just don't have it in me. I still think some girls are cute and whatever but its like I dont even want to be near them. The problem I'm having is I still feel the feeling of crushing loneliness and distant avaiation. But then I feel like Im ok like it doesn't matter anymore.

Idk if its a defense mechnaism or something but im so mixed when it comes to girls I just feel I'm meant to be alone but idk if I could do that. If anyone wants to break this down for me I'd much apperciate it

I don't think dating people as a means of gaining affection you're not getting elsewhere is a good idea. Doing anything for the sake of it is usually not a good idea. Are you able to work through these feelings with a professional? forums will only get you so far. I think you need to devote more time to yourself and becoming the person you want to be rather than getting into relationships when you know deep down this isn't what you want right now. You'll just be causing yourself more problems in the long term.

[irishpackerfan]

I guinely used to like/wanted to date people. Now its just like whats the point if I keep getting burned.

i know this won't help mjuch, but i want to be alone.

i'm not a people person at all

i'm happy being alone.. and i don't think i'd enjoy being with a partner, at all.

it's what ever makes you happy i believe- if you do genually want to find someone, keep looking- but speaking from my point of view, you don't need a partner to make you complete

[layla11]

Hi personally, I need affection. With me I have some black or white thinking. Their is a gray area. I really enjoy my time to myself. I think you need affection, but theres no rush just take your time and look for a different type of women.