[Emerald_]

I hope this thread doesn't come across as conceited, as it is not intended that way. However, I am having a hard time with this issue. I am continually finding myself the target of other peoples' insecurity-fuelled jealousy. I don't think they appreciate what a hard time I'm having with my mental health, and will often exclude me or be vindictive e.g. I've had people make rumours up about me before. I do think I come across as a strong individual, so they probably think it doesn't matter much. However, I have BDD so have a hard enough time with my image, and this is not just paranoia. It's really frustrating me now. I don't know why people have to be so vindictive because they perceive me as a threat I'm not.

[shezbut]

(((Emerald)))

I can relate, to an extent. It sounds like you're relatively young. A time in which other people's opinions of us means a little more to us than it does later in life. Girls didn't like me at all until I was in my early 30's. I don't know if they made lies up about me, but I was a black sheep in school and at work. Guys did like me (and still do), but my self-esteem is much too low to be fulfilled by others.

If people could see my self-esteem, they'd see that haven't a thing to worry about with me around! However, drinking a few beers does boost it a bit & that's a time when my behavior is much more confident and perhaps seen as threatening by other women??? I don't allow myself to become completely loaded anymore though, because that's when serious mistakes are made. It's been 20+ years since I've done that ~ back in high school.

Gentle hugs to you!

[Lost in my head]

Originally Posted by Emerald_

I hope this thread doesn't come across as conceited, as it is not intended that way. However, I am having a hard time with this issue. I am continually finding myself the target of other peoples' insecurity-fuelled jealousy. I don't think they appreciate what a hard time I'm having with my mental health, and will often exclude me or be vindictive e.g. I've had people make rumours up about me before. I do think I come across as a strong individual, so they probably think it doesn't matter much. However, I have BDD so have a hard enough time with my image, and this is not just paranoia. It's really frustrating me now. I don't know why people have to be so vindictive because they perceive me as a threat I'm not.

Hey. I feel you on this so much and its been a mind fxxx for me as well. It seems that I am mis judged and accused of someone I am not. I genuinely care about people and I always look out for people and try to give benefit of doubt. Then I get told that I'm selfish and I only care about myself????? I usually screw myself over if anything. Don't even get me started on the jealousy tip! I dont think I will ever get why. My life is a constant roller coaster, I have kids who deserve a more motherly mommy, my boyfriend & I fight to no resolve and we are freakin broke right now. Uh, yeh, sounds real desireable rite? I mean I'd be so jealous of me. I also happen to be too honest. Go figure, it seems people prefer others to sugar coat or lie to them more. Huh, whoda thunk it?