[chalicat]

Hi all, I'm the one who posted a while ago about my boyfriends disrespectful child. I got approved to move into an apt. next Fri. For days I've been packing and cleaning and getting stuff ready, and although I've cried before, it really hit me hard today. A lot of the stuff where we're living is mine, and I guess just the fact that all of a sudden it looks so bare made it really hit home: this is really over. This man That I've loved for five years, I may never see again after next week. I know logically I'm doing the right thing but that doesn't make it any easier. I almost feel like one of us has a terminal illness and we know the exact date of when the end will be. There are still a few photos up on the walls that I'm really having a hard time taking down. I go up and down between being excited about beginning this new chapter in my life, and having crying jags where I wonder if I'm doing the right thing. I've never left anyone that I've still been in love with before and it's breaking my heart.

[Leed]

Dearheart -- you ARE doing the right thing. This IS a new chapter in your life, and it will be WONDERFUL. I know it hurts now, and you WILL grieve for awhile. That's only natural. You've been with this guy for 5 years, so you HAVE to grieve for the lost relationship, but NOT for him. He will be fine!

But soon, you will begin to feel better, especially when you're decorating your new place, and meeting new friends. You will realize what you've been missing. You will realize that you have a NEW life now, and it's all for the taking.

You're still young, and have plenty more years to do WHATEVER you want to. So get out there and LIVE!!! I wish I had it to do over again! I wish you all the very best -- and a wonderful NEW life. You deserve the best. God bless and keep us informed, okay? WE really care. Hugs, Lee

[chalicat]

Thank, Lee, I needed that!