[shortandcute]

Things I wish I could tell them, but don't have the guts to:

I was not born into this world to hurt you. I was not born to compete with my mother, to somehow provoke you without even doing anything, as part of a conspiracy, or to "pick a fight." I was brought into this world through no fault of my own, and did not ask to be born--same as you.

I do not have a conspiracy against you, and I never did. I don't go around talking about you, starting rumors about you, and trying to magically control people to think bad things about you.

I do ask that you remember the golden rule when you're with me. Please do not treat me in ways that you would not want me to treat you. If you do not want me to make fun of you in public, to delibratly humiliate and embarrass you, then please don't do it to me.

If you do not want me to come with you, then please don't ask. I'd rather be alone than have you resent me for coming along when you only asked so no one would bother you about where I was. Also, please don't ask me to come along if the only reason you're inviting me is so I'll feel obligated to pay for the gas.

If you do not want me eating your food, then do not invite me over for dinner. I'd rather make my own dinner than have you invite me over, then let me know how much I'm "putting you out" by eating your food.

Also, I cannot read minds and I'm not very good at second guessing people's motives, so if you need something from me, or I'm hurting you, please come out and say it. I may not react the way you'd like, but I'd rather you said something, than getting mad at me for not "just knowing." Please do not ask me to be open and honest about my feelings if you really don't want to hear it.

If I tell you I don't have the money for something, it's because I don't, not because I just don't want to be with you.

It's not my responsibility to make you look good, or to make our mother love you more.

If you want to get yourself in a financial bind by rescuing our mother, then that is your problem, not mine.

When you visit someone, and they ask about me, it's not because they love me more, or like me better--they are simply being polite and making conversation.

I did not ask to be sick. I do not want to be this way. I'm not this way because of "something I ate," or because I am "living in sin." I just am and I need you to understand me--but I do not need you to baby me or make excuses for me. I am human--the same as you.

[possum220]

I hope you feel better after expressing yourself. It is very hard with our families at times. They seem to know where all the buttons are.

Take care......