[lenjan]

Oh, man. I don't know if this is the right place for this, but here goes. It feels like it belongs in PTSD....

Here I am, snoring away, cat's at the foot of the bed, all is well, and I got woken up by this HORRIBLE dream. It involves someone I haven't seen since at most a year after we got out of college (coming up on 20 yrs). I don't even know where she is anymore, or how her life has turned out, etc -- I've tried hard not to keep in touch, actually.

I'll skip the details because I don't really want to relive them, frankly, but it ended with her leaning over me and telling me I was going to "get it sometime tomorrow" for sleeping with her boyfriend. I could hear her voice, feel her breath on my neck. I shook it off, tried to go back to sleep, and it happened again. Consequently, I am up for the night, I think!

We were roommates our junior year. The guy she was dating DID hit on me after they broke up, and I turned him down cold. I have enough integrity not to sleep with somebody else's bf, even after they get dumped ... geeze. She and I made plans to move in together (we had a bunch of other roommates that year) for sr. year, and two days before we signed the lease she told me she and Scott had gotten back together and he didn't want her living with me, so she was dumping me. The school year was about to start, and I had to come up with a new place to live that I could afford by myself...it wasn't pretty.

Anyway, I mention that to illustrate I would never do that to someone, so I don't know where this came from. But I am so on edge now that there's not a chance I'm going back to bed!

Anybody into dream interp who wants to tackle this one??

CB

[dottie]

Boy...that's a doozy of a nightmare! Are you afraid of...or insecure about something right now or in the near future?

I had a nightmare too..and that's why I'm up as well. It's all about "worrying"!! Sheesh!

[hillbunnyb]

yeh, I was gonna say, are you afraid of betraying yourself right now? or being falsely accused? Jung had it that we are each element of our dreams. If you can sorta become each part, you can gain insight on what it represents to you. It's tricky to get on with, but like riding a bicycle, or interpreting those dott pictures, once you get it, you got it.

[lenjan]

I have a post in Anxiety about what's going on with me ... lots of big changes coming in a hurry in my life right now ... and feeling like a fraud ... but falsely accused, no!

[Perna]

I believe we're everyone in our dreams (since they're ours) kind of like having DID I guess :-) so some part of you doesn't sound it's happy with something you did recently?

If it were my dream, I'd look through thoughts and actions I had yesterday and maybe the day before and see if there wasn't somewhere where I said to myself, "you're gonna get it for that!" or even a book/novel you were reading, TV show/movie you were watching where you thought that about a character.

Too, I'd look and see if the "opposite" were true and see if there weren't some situation that was "similar" to that triangle where I suspected the other person of thinking something like that because of the situation, even though "I didn't do it!" Kind of an I thought she would think that I thought. . . scenario where I tend to overidentify with what I think other people "should" think or feel and don't check it out. When that happens I think others are out to "get" me even though that might not be the case but only in my head. So, my head would put it in a dream so I can "see" it better, in 3D and maybe get the connection.

It's sort of how I think therapy worked best for me; when I could get my head, myself and my therapist all working on something together (or journaling); it gets easier to see if you can somehow put a problem "out there" by using "3" people.

[(JD)]

Candy I think you answered many of your own questions...in the first post and then again...

I do agree that it is indicative of all the changes and worries and struggles you are going through. This is quite evident with the changes being associated with your moving, imo.

That you thought about it belonging in PTSD forum adds to the idea that these are old scripts, but still viable fears.

Hope you sleep better tonight