Face covered behind this thick paper mask... to get it all off is the long term task. Couldn't do it on my own, so I got help from new sources. Never seen, heard or felt them, any days before.

In days fled by time... I used to walk in solitude. Eyes looking... eyes searching... eyes eager... to find all my flaws... clothes not pleasing their self absorbed minds. Eyes... oh so cold... cruel... small dictators in need to feel beautiful whilst looking down on those lonely wanderers. Did I choose to lead my life like this? NO! You see... I tried to be a part of this human puzzle. I just wouldn't fit in. I'm a person in need for pure love... just like you, you and you. Can't force love... it just won't follow. What was I to do???
The answer is simple... yet oh so difficult. WAIT in patience! Some day I might just come across LOVE. Those who wait are not joyful... not full of life... No, time is passing by in slow motion... feelings getting cold. Soon the heart will tell you to STOP this journey. Why? Because the numbness is spreading... poisoning every cell... one by one... at a furious rate. Is it worth this long patience? When will it be over? When will the sun come out to shine? When will my eyes see just the same details you're seeing... when will you see through my eyes?
Giving up! Nothing else to do! First fighting... Trying to be just like you... no... never good enough. Fed up! Hurt! Sad! Mad! Such a huge defeat!
Waaaaaaiiiiting… waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiting… THEN!

SUDDENLY! THE U-turn of my life.

“She” felt my fragile being and took me gently under “her” soft wings. “She” had a special something to give to me, you see. Wait a little while and you will find out, what it might be.

A soft warm breeze came through the air... touching my very soul. A sensation soooo strong.... so vivid.... so true.... so pure... so NEW

Understanding... listening... crying... laughing... comforting... talking... this whole package... arrived in an instant! FRIENDS!
DEAR LOVABLE FRIENDS! Friends who see the inner me…

LOVE! The gift of love had been given me. I will treasure it all my days!

Still some pain is left inside, from history's days. Learning by the hands of my friends... day by day... to trust... to love... to be ME. This old mask of mine is getting thinner each day…

Love is beautiful… like a magnificent sunset… a red rose in bloom… the children’s laughter in a playful tone… the ocean blue sky… the eagle flying high on light wings… the water you drink on a hot summer day… love is LIFE.
My dear friends… you are LOVE… you are LIFE.

Thank you!

(((((Poetry lover))))) This is very beautifully written. You're a dear friend in turn-love and life!
No, silly girl, thank YOU!!!!

(wink, wink)

[SeptemberMorn]