[pandagurl]

Hi all, I've been in a big dilemma and any honest advices would be helpful. So I dated this guy when I was in high school for about a year, but I cheated on him many times. I have also cheated on other guys for him after we broke up. As crazy as this sounds, I just didn't know what was right or wrong in a relationship. My relationship with my first boyfriend was going downhill and the first guy who I cheated on him with convinced me that cheating is okay when relationships are bad.

Its been about 3 years since I first dated him and we somehow started talking again, and I guess I never truly got over him so it was so easy for me to attach to him because of the comfort.

The problem is that before talking to him again, I realized how horrible of a thing I did and couldn't stop thinking that I was a horrible person that I thought about suicide multiple times. I never attempted to do anything, but did cut my wrists (just real slight marks) a lot. I was real depressed and had no one to talk to about it, but did with my mom one day.

My parents on the other hand have been married for about 10 years, but recently my dad cheated on my mom. If I were to describe my mom, she is too dependent on my dad and so she went crazy but in the end, is still in love with my dad. He has cheated on her multiple times after that and she found out and it just made her crazier and crazier, not being able to trust him at all.

So when my mom found out that I am talking to this guy again, without thinking, she tells me that I will end up cheating on him again and that I will try to hurt myself again. This comment could be something I could just ignore, but it always stays in the back of my head, and so I have a hard time trusting this guy and I'm scared to get attached to him.

I have doubts since if I truly liked this guy, I shouldn't let this comment of my mom's get to me but I know that "moms are always right" and it bugs me all the time. I'm currently on a vacation with him and his family and I just hate having this thought in my head. Not sure if I should talk about it with him, or..just not sure. Please help. Thank you

[healingme4me]

To work through, whether this is a true statement, from your Mom, is to tackle the root of the issue, that brought you to cheat, in first place.

May involve, finding out, why you went down the sh, path.

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