[mulan]

I'm a weird person. I know some people stranger than me, but is that realy some kind of consolation?
Because when I look to those people I see them alone, not talking to anyone, not having friends and having very strange behaviours and personalities. I wouldn't be friend of those people either, at least the ones I'm thinking about. As nobody can stand with them.

I do talk to people, so at least, in their eyes and in mine, I'm not so strange. But I'm still strange. And people like me don't get very accepted by their peers. I can say I'm still in the battle field, fighting for a place in a group, in the society, but it seems unlikely to happen.

My faults/problems: I have some kind of time/place disturb, and I get confused very easily; I have this urge to tell a story that reminds me something that is happening and most of the times those stories have little to do with what is happening and don't matter to anyone, in other words, boring; I go from 8 to 80, like I can step everyone else to tell my boring stories (that I sortely can't control), and in the other end I am that person with low energy levels, just few times funny, with few things to say, being like somewhat excited when talking and little time latter being the opposite in relation to communication.

I tend to talk a lot about me, what I know it's tedious for the other people. I talk a lot about my experiences, when we are discussing something related, even I know them just a little and they aren't interested in them. I try to control this, but I really feel like.

I'm very distracted, with my head in the clouds: forggeting things, missing things, saying wrong things...and sometimes I have this child like behaviour (jumping, doing ridiculous stuff, talking with strange voice tones, saying ridiculous things on porpose).

These are basicaly the reasons I'm not very likable. People don't like me very much, and they can't and they won't.

Beside these, I feel like there's a wall bettwen me and the rest of the world, like I'm in this bubble, from where I can see the others, and it makes it realy hard to trully feel conected with someone. Just some few times. Even with the ones I know for years. Sometimes it just feels like while I'm speaking to others I'm just talking to myself, there isn't really anybody there. It's awfall.

I'm always finding mistakes in my behaviour that I'm sure people don't apreciate and that will made them be away from me. And that's true. I annoy people, I can't be any different, and I regret the mistakes that make people find me annoying.

[Travelinglady]

Hey, Mulan, I agree that certain personalities are harder to like than others. That said, you do seem to have a lot of insight into what you do or don't do that turns people off.

Have you considered therapy to work on these behaviors? Likely some of them can be adjusted, even if sort of seen as your personality.

I can relate. Thanks for sharing this. I'm in a bubble too.

Originally Posted by mulan

I'm a weird person. I know some people stranger than me, but is that realy some kind of consolation?
Because when I look to those people I see them alone, not talking to anyone, not having friends and having very strange behaviours and personalities. I wouldn't be friend of those people either, at least the ones I'm thinking about. As nobody can stand with them.

I do talk to people, so at least, in their eyes and in mine, I'm not so strange. But I'm still strange. And people like me don't get very accepted by their peers. I can say I'm still in the battle field, fighting for a place in a group, in the society, but it seems unlikely to happen.

My faults/problems: I have some kind of time/place disturb, and I get confused very easily; I have this urge to tell a story that reminds me something that is happening and most of the times those stories have little to do with what is happening and don't matter to anyone, in other words, boring; I go from 8 to 80, like I can step everyone else to tell my boring stories (that I sortely can't control), and in the other end I am that person with low energy levels, just few times funny, with few things to say, being like somewhat excited when talking and little time latter being the opposite in relation to communication.

I tend to talk a lot about me, what I know it's tedious for the other people. I talk a lot about my experiences, when we are discussing something related, even I know them just a little and they aren't interested in them. I try to control this, but I really feel like.

I'm very distracted, with my head in the clouds: forggeting things, missing things, saying wrong things...and sometimes I have this child like behaviour (jumping, doing ridiculous stuff, talking with strange voice tones, saying ridiculous things on porpose).

These are basicaly the reasons I'm not very likable. People don't like me very much, and they can't and they won't.

Beside these, I feel like there's a wall bettwen me and the rest of the world, like I'm in this bubble, from where I can see the others, and it makes it realy hard to trully feel conected with someone. Just some few times. Even with the ones I know for years. Sometimes it just feels like while I'm speaking to others I'm just talking to myself, there isn't really anybody there. It's awfall.

I'm always finding mistakes in my behaviour that I'm sure people don't apreciate and that will made them be away from me. And that's true. I annoy people, I can't be any different, and I regret the mistakes that make people find me annoying.

This is me. All the way.

For you:

[mulan]

Do it looks like my personality is a bad one?
My close family sort of likes me. And I have one or two people beside that, that apreciate me and they stand and kinda of "enjoy" being with me.

My biggest, biggest fault, the one I know that turns most of people away, it's that I don't look like an emocional one, I don't usualy have something to say. And it feels different everyday.

You don't know me of course, but I would want to know, soo much, what people think of me. I have an idea of what some of them think of me. My sister sometimes tells me that I'm annoying but we both tell this to our brother much more times, and I like him dispite of them...

I think I'm not really annoying, just boring to hang around.

[Spaceship]

We sound like the same. I think I would not find you borin as I do this too.

Originally Posted by mulan

Do it looks like my personality is a bad one?
My close family sort of likes me. And I have one or two people beside that, that apreciate me and they stand and kinda of "enjoy" being with me.

My biggest, biggest fault, the one I know that turns most of people away, it's that I don't look like an emocional one, I don't usualy have something to say. And it feels different everyday.

You don't know me of course, but I would want to know, soo much, what people think of me. I have an idea of what some of them think of me. My sister sometimes tells me that I'm annoying but we both tell this to our brother much more times, and I like him dispite of them...

I think I'm not really annoying, just boring to hang around.

I really feel like I wrote your posts

I have to let you know though: you sound like such a sweetheart hun. I'm sure you are because you sound considerate of what others feel. I say this since you mention you don't think you show your emotions well. Being a quiet person can mean leading a difficult life...Regardless, still wanted to let you know that though.

P.S: go back and reread what I typed in bold. (: