[MissSouthernBelle]

I don't know what to do. He can't even see me face-to-face, he's so broken right now after getting out of an abusive relationship 6 months ago. We've been texting since we first met and have only met once because he's so scared and has trust issues from childhood sexual abuse and the abuse thus far. He basically pleaded with me in the beginning to "make him" see me. I couldn't do that. I was not going to be abusive like his ex-girlfriend. We've kept in contact and he finally confided in me a few nights ago that he has always felt the same as me, and likes me, but the fact that I've stood by him for four months now and haven't left him like all the others scares him too much and then, he says it's also the biggest comfort in the world. He said the side of him I saw doesn't come out very often because he's so broken and when I said I'd like to see him more often as he heals, he said as long as I mended him.

He is in the pattern where he'll want to see me, text me asking to come over, then when I say come over, he'll talk himself out of it, saying he's drunk, or whatever. He'll even get to the point where he will say he's sobering up, but will not consent to coming over, but will keep saying he wants to. It's maddening, but I know it's because he really wants to, but just can't do it.

It's breaking my heart. I want him close to me so bad, as we've gotten so close and I know he wants it too.

What breaks my heart even worse is when I see these anonymous (I can tell they are his) posts he puts on this popular college app we both have - where you can post secrets and see them nearby - saying that he wants to find a girl that treats him like his ex never did and saying that he's looking for her.

It really hurts my feelings, considering what he confided in me and everything, but I know it's probably just him thinking out loud because he can't even talk on the phone, go a day without having a panic attack, or meet in person, so how is he going to date easily?

He even said on the app recently that he wanted to cuddle a girl so bad, but it was impossible because he is broken right now.

I just don't know what to do. I don't know how to get him to trust me. He said the first moves would have to be by me. I don't know if I should tell him I'm coming to him the next time he wants to come over and not take no for an answer, or what, as that seems the only way to get him closer to someone that's not a guy friend.

I'm just confused.