Everyone is out to GET ME!!

My Partner and I are Lesbians. We have been together for 2 years and counting. when our relationship is good we are unstoppable but when its bad all hell breaks loose. We are seeing a counselor for couples therapy at my school but the sessions are only 50min..the problem I have is I discovered today that I feel like everybody is out to get me. I wonder where that comes from. I know I love her and our relationship is good, but sometimes Im always on the defense. Is this linked to my previous relationship? In that relationship there was years of lies and cheating. This actually was my first relationship where I was truly in love and all in and when I found out she cheated on me I was devastated. My personality changed for the worst, but the funny thing about that was I was cheating on her too and the first time I did it I told her about it and she didn't really respond like it bothered her too much, but I didnt notice I just felt bad. But come to find out about a month or so later she was cheating on me first. So we tried to stay together but I always kept this particular girl on the side and she wanted to be there. Eventually we broke up when I moved the girl to where we lived and she went back to men. She was bisexual. So we tried to get back together briefly, but she was pregnant. and there was no way I was going to stay. I felt a sense of relief like finally this is done and I couldnt do anything to save the relationship. So about 2 months after we broke up I got with my new partner. It was really bad at first but we have moved forward. I also dont have a relationship with my family. I love them very much and they love me, but they cannot find it in themselves to respect my relationships by including my partners in family gatherings. So are these things connected to why I feel everyone is out to get me?

Maybe it is faulty thinking - to think that everyone is out to get you? That just does not seem reasonable nor logical. So, I doubt that everybody is out to get you. When you describe years of lies, then it seems understandable that you'd feel defensive. Sounds like you are enhancing your self-awareness as you reflect on your relationships and the importance of certain people in your life. Hopefully, your counselor is helpful over time. And it's disappointing that your family doesn't include your partners.

Just in case I would see a psychiatrist, solo, to rule out paranoid ideation.