Mental Health Break

So, me and my boyfriend are taking a break because I have PTSD and BPD traits. I honestly don't know why I'm posting, part of me is sad and depressed to **** but like, I feel like this is my chance to find who I am for once and when he comes back he'll see all I can be. The girlfriend he desurves. I'm not saying I was being a terrible girlfriend but my problems (flashbacks, anxiety attacks, mood swings, half doped up on meds a few weeks before to keep the flashbacks at bay)

But I guess I also want to know who has had to take this kind of break? Where you still love each other and want to be together but can't because of their problems they need to work out for now. I've never been in a healthy relationship besides this one, part of me keeps freaking out like I'm back in my abusive relationship but I know that isn't helping. Anyways yeah I guess any good self care tips? What others have done in these situations that ended either well or alright, don't wanna feed my anixety lol. Thanks guys

Hello there! I just broke up with my boyfriend last week. I am bipolar and am not on meds yet. I have hurt him over & over again (not intentionally) by being mean, and not giving him the love and attention he needs, which in turn hurt me even more (I get angry, then depressed after we talk about it. Its a vicious cycle). I decided that it was time for a 'mental health break'.

I have felt this way for quite some time, but tried to make it work b/c I still love him, but I was doing more damage. I expressed to him that I needed to get my head right & he told me that 2 people who love each other stick by each other & don't 'put each other to the side'. But at the same time, I feel like if he loves me, he would give me this time I need to help me to help our relationship.

Anyways, I too was in an abusive relationship and have a hard time reminding myself that he is not the 'bad guy'. I guess that's something that you can try to do is remind yourself of that. I feel as though you should take this as a chance to figure some things out & get stabilized (as I need to). If you guys are meant to be, you will be. Idk if this helped at all, but I sure hope so. (sorry if I fed ur anxiety in any type of way)