[dc301]

Hello all, this is my first post on this site. I've been meaning to get on here. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2007 when I was about 19 I think. As with all cases, it gets better and it gets worse.

Right now, it's bad and it has to do with relationships. I think I'm a good honest person, and I've never had a serious relationship. I'm damn near obsessed with finding a girl. And I've gone out with several in the last 6 months. Two older divorced ones, who I really think just used and played me. I know it's not healthy, but I still talk the one and I still try and talk to the other. It's real complicated with her, because she is friends with my friends at wrestling and it's just causing problems. My friends at wrestling are friends with her trainer, with whom there's a good chance she's had or is having an affair with.

Now, these people won't back me up I feel like. They are more friends with the trainer, and just care about themselves in wrestling I guess.

I guess the bottom line here is to me, life is all about relationships. Nothing else matters. Because of that, and my loyalty and honesty, I get hurt so easily it seems because I'm always looking for the deeper meaning in things. People who are "happy" worry about themselves and bettering themselves, and don't care about others along the way.

I'm just over all of this. I know if I didnt' care as much, I'd be better off. But I do care. And it kills me, because all I feel is pain.

[hamster-bamster]

Dc301, how about you take a break from trying to find a girl, stop talking with the woman associated with your wrestling, and just do something fun for yourself, and eventually the right girl will make her appearance in your life, and will appreciate your many gifts, such as sensitivity, caring, loyalty, and many others.

[ExistingInChanges]

Originally Posted by dc301

Hello all, this is my first post on this site. I've been meaning to get on here. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2007 when I was about 19 I think. As with all cases, it gets better and it gets worse.

Right now, it's bad and it has to do with relationships. I think I'm a good honest person, and I've never had a serious relationship. I'm damn near obsessed with finding a girl. And I've gone out with several in the last 6 months. Two older divorced ones, who I really think just used and played me. I know it's not healthy, but I still talk the one and I still try and talk to the other. It's real complicated with her, because she is friends with my friends at wrestling and it's just causing problems. My friends at wrestling are friends with her trainer, with whom there's a good chance she's had or is having an affair with.

Now, these people won't back me up I feel like. They are more friends with the trainer, and just care about themselves in wrestling I guess.

I guess the bottom line here is to me, life is all about relationships. Nothing else matters. Because of that, and my loyalty and honesty, I get hurt so easily it seems because I'm always looking for the deeper meaning in things. People who are "happy" worry about themselves and bettering themselves, and don't care about others along the way.

I'm just over all of this. I know if I didnt' care as much, I'd be better off. But I do care. And it kills me, because all I feel is pain.

I wasn't so different than you. I wanted a relationship more than anything. For years I searched and finally met the right person. It is no walk in the park to find a lasting love. Know in your heart you will find a woman one day and keep looking if you want, but add in other things. Don't make it your entire life's focus. Do hobbies. Do chores. Work on learning new things. Have experiences, because then when you meet your girl, you will have so many cool stories to tell her.

[dc301]

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

Dc301, how about you take a break from trying to find a girl, stop talking with the woman associated with your wrestling, and just do something fun for yourself, and eventually the right girl will make her appearance in your life, and will appreciate your many gifts, such as sensitivity, caring, loyalty, and many others.

Thanks for the message. I appreciate that, and I have been spending more time alone lately, but I don't think that's good either. I'm on a couple different dating sites, and seeing one girl who's into me I think but I just don't feel the same yet. I feel like I've always been the passive guy, and "waited" for a girl to show up in my life, but it hasn't happened. I feel I need to try. And I don't want to give on these girls just cause I'll feel so good if it happens with them because a lot of people are against it I feel like.

And the one guy is my tag team championship partner in wrestling, so I really can't cause too many problems with him I don't know.

Thanks for the post though, have a great day!

[dc301]

Originally Posted by ExistingInChanges

I wasn't so different than you. I wanted a relationship more than anything. For years I searched and finally met the right person. It is no walk in the park to find a lasting love. Know in your heart you will find a woman one day and keep looking if you want, but add in other things. Don't make it your entire life's focus. Do hobbies. Do chores. Work on learning new things. Have experiences, because then when you meet your girl, you will have so many cool stories to tell her.

It all sounds so wonderful brother haha. But that's the thing, and I'm sure you know this, when you're depressed, it's hard to do ANYTHING. I'm just going through the motions at work. It's awful.

Thanks for the post though, have a great day!

[ExistingInChanges]

Originally Posted by dc301

It all sounds so wonderful brother haha. But that's the thing, and I'm sure you know this, when you're depressed, it's hard to do ANYTHING. I'm just going through the motions at work. It's awful.

Thanks for the post though, have a great day!

You're welcome. I know it is hard. The thing is is that if you can, then just take it a little at a time. Don't try to overwhelm yourself. It will get better..even if it is just for brief periods of time.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by dc301

Thanks for the message. I appreciate that, and I have been spending more time alone lately, but I don't think that's good either. I'm on a couple different dating sites, and seeing one girl who's into me I think but I just don't feel the same yet. I feel like I've always been the passive guy, and "waited" for a girl to show up in my life, but it hasn't happened. I feel I need to try. And I don't want to give on these girls just cause I'll feel so good if it happens with them because a lot of people are against it I feel like.

And the one guy is my tag team championship partner in wrestling, so I really can't cause too many problems with him I don't know.

Thanks for the post though, have a great day!

That is good, for your sense of balance so to speak, that there is this girl who is into you but you are not reciprocating. I mean, she poor thing is going to be disappointed, but you get to see that the tables can be turned. It's not always you getting frustrated, but can be the other way around, too.