need some help

I am a 32 year male living at home with my step dad and mom.My step sister lives with us and I have fell in love with her every since last march or april and I cannot get her out of my head.My mom and step dad found out about after I gave her a note telling how I feel about her.She is 16 years old.I will be 33 in may and she will be 17 in Sept. It is really hard for me to stop feeling this way and I really hate myself for it.She has a boyfriend and few days ago she was talking about him and I told her that I wasn't listening.I really don't want to listen about there relationship cause it is like my heart is being ripped apart.I don't go anywhere to meet people or anything.I am pretty jealous of her boyfriend and it really made me mad when she told me that she got almost got written up for PDA with her boyfriend.I didn't say anything to her after that.I didn't want to hurt her feeling or anything. I have reacted not that great sometimes when she mentions him without thinking. I just hurt. They have recently been making out I guess.I really don't know what to do about this.I really care about her and I have never felt this way about anyone before.I don't think I will ever get a wife or girlfriend cause I think I am fat and ugly.I weight 306 lbs.I am currently trying to lose weight with doing focus t25 riding the stationary bike and weight lifting.I dont know if I just annoy her or not.We talk sometimes for 5 hours straight.She says she likes talking to me but I think she only likes me as a brother and I wouldn't go after her till she is at least 18 at the earliest.I really would like any nice imput about this.I really don't know what to do about it.I have great intentions and I don't want to ever hurt her or doing anything bad like kiss her or anything cause that probably would creep her out and I shouldn't do that to a 16 year old girl.I really have a hurge heart.Should I just annoy her and stop talking to her as we sometimes cut up and laugh and talk.I don't have anyone else to talk to and it is really hard to just stop talking to her.I have said before that I would just stop talking to her but then she starts talking and shatters the wall I built up.I did'nt know where else to talk about this so I am talking about here.I hope this don't offend anyone.I

Seems like there is an age gap. Maybe she thinks of you as her step-brother - so why would that change?

She's too young for you.

Yeah I know.Seems like the 4 girls I liked in my life been wrong for me.I have not liked a girl till now since 2001.

You have no options. More than one wall stopping you. 1. She's underage. You have no choice but to leave it alone. Aside from the size of the age gap, which in and of itself, is not the problem. Just the fact that it's not legal and you can't do anything about it. Move on. 2. She's your relative by marriage. Although technically she's not your blood relative, having anything romantic with a step sibling is screaming for complications and difficulties. Again, move on. Let it go. You have feelings, that's perfectly normal but that does not mean you have to act on them. Don't.

Oh there are options for the OP....the best one being - MOVE OUT and get out on your own one way or another. You are going down a very slippery slope and if you don't put distance between the both of you, you will regret it at some point, not to mention hurting the very person you claim to love.

If you need assistance finding and securing your own place, look for it. There are many agencies that help folks find their own places as well as monetary help. If you are disabled and can't hold down a job, apply for disability if you haven't done so already. If you are not in therapy, please consider finding a T and going. You seriously need to work on your thoughts and emotions about your step-sister.

In other words, start taking steps to be responsible for yourself. Know that just because we may feel something doesn't mean we have to act on those feelings. You choose how YOU want to act.

The reason I'm writing strongly to you is because if you decide to act on your feelings, there will be extremely difficult ramifications. You could hurt this girl in ways you can't even imagine. This could affect her whole life in a very negative way. You could find yourself in jail and labeled a sex offender for the rest of your life. If you think life is hard now, think about how that would affect your life.

Take steps to fix this problem now. You are the only one who can do this.