[niceguy]

I am not having a good day. I am in fact very sad. Shocker!! I know right!!

Ok, so I get everything happens for a reason, but the way I'm feeling right now,
It's seeming like the world is against me. What's worse is that I am missing X like crazy. I know it sounds nuts, but I feel like he is all around me. The way I did when one of my friends died a few years back.
Anyways, what does it matter? They're gone. I am feeling all alone. I spend so much of my time being there for everyone else, now when I need some support, nothing.
I very rarely get down, or at least not for too long, but honestly knowing that it's really completely and utterly over this time, makes me feel completely alone in the world. I hate that I miss them. I hate that I can't contact them and start the rolllercoaster ride again. I hate that in all the time I tried to be there for them, when I need them, they aren't here.
I know I'm ranting, but I need to get it out - and let's face it, who else can I rant at?
If I called one of my mates, reality is, within two minutes I would be playin councillor to them.

Thankyou for reading

[LadyShadow]

Its ok! Rant all you want. That's what we are here for to listen. I know what its like to lose someone you cared about. Don't worry you're not alone.

[Frankbtl]

Hi niceguy, we're here for you!!! I know it's got to be really hard, so many memories and so many (even if tiny) reminders, right?? But you can/will be so much stronger without them, even if it doesn't feel that way right now. There can still be a much better tomorrow/s, and the more you are able to gradually let go of things and concentrate on yourself a bit more the easier it is going to get.
Now you don't need a relationship/a partner to make you whole, to validate you, to allow you to be someone/something special so maybe let that shine a little more for you, and focus on the freedom you now have to do/be who you want.
And when someone else comes into your life. well that's just going to be a bonus, and a bonus especially because now you're going to be better able to see you might really deserve a place in your life.
But sure, it's totally understandable that you're hurting right now, and you've got a right to be hurting, just know that you have the power in you to move on from this given a little time and that it isn't always going to be like this. You can/will make it/everything so much better in the end.
Here for you.........
Alison