[callmekari]

She comes into my room this morning and wakes me up, I can't even remember for what now, it was that unimportant. So now I'm exhausted, but awake, so I go for a smoke, visit with my boyfriend before he goes to work, then go crawl back in to bed, cuz I'm ****ing tired.

9:30 rolls around she comes and wakes me up again to go to English class (which is at 10:30) and proceeds to tell me we have a mini quiz on this book we were supposed to read, which I haven't read and that we should have water again soon (we had a water main break, haven't had water for 2 days now, this is day 3). K, whatever. Then she starts pestering me to get up, turns all the lights on, takes my blanket, screaming (singing), making tons of noise, because I tell her I don't want to go to English and she's determined to get me out of bed. My whole world has been disrupted by this no water thing, I haven't been able to shower, my routine is gone, I bombed my math midterm yesterday. Theres no way I'm leaving the house today. I'm on the verge of tears every second and have been since last night.

It sounds harmless, sounds like shes actually doing something good for me, but there's a reason I got upset with her. That's exactly what my mother used to do. Wake me up in a loud obnoxious way and then proceed to belittle and abuse me. So whenever she wakes me up, its an instant trigger that reminds me of the **** I had to put up with my mom.

I can't stand living with her anymore. She's judgemental, loud, has these stupid little comments all the time that put you down but she's "just joking". I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being reminded of my mother and all the ****** parts of my childhood just from being around her.

The boyfriend and I are going to look at an apartment this evening, hopefully its a good place. Then I'll only have a month left here with her.

We used to be good friends, I think living with her for almost 2 years ruined that. I just hate being around her now. She makes me so uncomfortable. I don't leave my room except to use the bathroom or grab something from the kitchen quick. It's just making me feel worse.

Sorry, just had to rant for a bit.

[callmekari]

Ugh!!! And her cat is the most annoying disrespectful little ****er in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!