[veiledregret1234]

Ugh, I let him get under my skin again. It was only two drinks instead of twenty, but I hate that someone has that kind of power over me. I let him in and now I can't get him out. This sucks.

Originally Posted by veiledregret1234

Ugh, I let him get under my skin again. It was only two drinks instead of twenty, but I hate that someone has that kind of power over me. I let him in and now I can't get him out. This sucks.

Not knowing any details, I don't know who "he" is. I'm sorry you're having issues but can you elaborate?

[gayleggg]

Those drinks will make you weak everytime, even if it's just two. Sorry you are having to suffer.

[veiledregret1234]

He is my very recently ex boyfriend.

[waiting4]

Originally Posted by veiledregret1234

He is my very recently ex boyfriend.

Been there. I'm sorry you're hurting. Be glad of two things, if you can....it WASN'T 20 drinks....and 2 drinks causing you to 'let him in' isn't fatal, even as it seems so at the moment. When it's happening, it seems like it's a forever thing. But forgive yourself, and start again (and I'm guessing of course, that you let him in emotionally, as apposed to in your house, and can't get him out).

I had to start over several times after the break up....not because I had contact, but because I'd think of him, hurt, WISH I had contact, beat myself up because of the wish....and there he'd be...in my head again for what seemed like forever. And I'd start again, with a new resolve until I finally could think of him without being afraid I'd never get him out...because, eventually, he couldn't get back in.

Take care

[veiledregret1234]

And now a complete lack of support from my family has left me to choose between going back to this man or not seeing my son. Feels great to be a non entity.