[Stronger]

I dislike conflict and I despise drama. And in the past I have been burned/stabbed in the back by way too many of my "best friends". In elementary school my "best friends" later bullied me and made a point of making my life miserable.

Well, lately I've been going crazy, psych issues wise. But on top of that, my best friend, out of nowhere, has decided that we aren't friends anymore. And she has made a point through her actions of letting me know she doesn't want me in her life by excluding me from EVERYTHING. That and lots of other drama that I won't get into.

Well...today was the last straw. I left school planning to go eat lunch on my own (because despite my efforts she still stood me up on that ) but instead I just sat in my car and sobbed harder than I have in 5 years. For 30 minutes!
Um. I don't cry. The last time I cried was when one of my friends committed suicide.
What is wrong with me?!

I feel so rejected and alone.
I gave her a piece of my heart over these past four years, but over just a short period of time she successfully ripped it up and threw it away.
This is THE LAST thing I need right now! Aaaaaahhhhhhh!

I could really use a hug right now.
Or, does anyone have any stories of best friend losses they want to share? I just feel so bad about feeling this bad.

[Purpledaze]

Big hugs to you ((((Stronger)))). Sorry you are struggling with so many things.

It is very hurtful when people just decide out of the blue that they are not your friend anymore. The way I see it, it's a betrayal of your trust in her, and by doing this to you she has turned into someone you don't recognize. I think friendships ending can feel just as bad as romantic relationships ending... So let yourself cry about it, and try to give yourself a break and not feel bad about feeling bad.

So you asked for other stories.... I have a friend problem too at the moment. We are still friends but I'm not sure it can last. I've known her for a year and we've become close, but I recently found out that she has lied about her whole life. I feel I need to give her the chance to come clean because I can't continue the friendship when it's based on lies. But whenever I see her we have such fun and I don't want to destroy that.

Hope you can move on from this... You will make it through and come out Stronger (what a great name!)

[Stronger]

Originally Posted by Purpledaze

Big hugs to you ((((Stronger)))). Sorry you are struggling with so many things.

It is very hurtful when people just decide out of the blue that they are not your friend anymore. The way I see it, it's a betrayal of your trust in her, and by doing this to you she has turned into someone you don't recognize. I think friendships ending can feel just as bad as romantic relationships ending... So let yourself cry about it, and try to give yourself a break and not feel bad about feeling bad.

So you asked for other stories.... I have a friend problem too at the moment. We are still friends but I'm not sure it can last. I've known her for a year and we've become close, but I recently found out that she has lied about her whole life. I feel I need to give her the chance to come clean because I can't continue the friendship when it's based on lies. But whenever I see her we have such fun and I don't want to destroy that.

Hope you can move on from this... You will make it through and come out Stronger (what a great name!)

Oh, you are very right about the whole "having a relationship built on lies" thing. Yeah. It sounds like it might be a good move to end the friendship, as painful as it really is.
I hope that goes over in the best way it possibly can!