Hey guys. I want to have an opinion from people who are outsiders to the situation. My boyfriend of a year and half and I have having troubles. See the first thing is we never see each other. He has a job and is going to school online and I sadly don't have a job but am going to school online and take care of my seven year old all day who is spoiled rotten by his father and my aunt and uncle who I live with. Me and my boyfriend have been fighting a lot. Of the stupidest things. He hurts me just slightly and I freak out, I believe it because of past relationships and then I hurt him and he does the same thing. He's worried this is going to become a circle thing and broke up with me two days ago on the phone but then said he wanted to try again. He told me his emotional side wanted to be with him but his rational side was telling him no because he's trying to protect himself. As for me I love him and sadly I find love to be the most important thing in my life. Before we started fighting all the time we talked about moving in together and getting married and blah blah. I've never felt this way about anyone. And on another note he doesn't understand my bipolar. I'm trying to help him understand but I'm not sure he can handle it. He says he can and sometimes it looks like he's trying but that doesn't make me any less scared. I trust him to some extent but I can't fully because I'm terrified he's gong to find someone who isn't as messed up as me. My family says we shoudn't be together because we just fight. But the thing is for the first year we never faught. Maybe we are different but can't two people be different and make it work if we compromise and try? Any ideas? This is killing me and honestly I don't need to have this crap going on because I'm trying to take control of my own life. But I don't want to lose him...
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