Jared...the good things, and the drinking part.

This is me replying to my old post, and underneath, are the GOOD things about jared:

Hes home today, we went to our friends funeral, he feels horrible, and im going to keep it that way until he proves himself to me. my parents really dont want me seeing him, and since im not 18 yet, what they say, goes. i feel horrible. i have absolutly no friends since im not in school, and i live in the hills, far away from everything. my parents always want me home, and jared doesnt like comming over. he really is a great person, you guys only hear the bad things about him. i love him, and he tells me every day that he doesnt want to loose me, but we all know and i told him, that hes starting to. i dont know what to do all day now. he was my life. he is my life. dont tell me to take care of myself, because i am. dont tell me to be possitive, because im trying. dont give me hugs or say keep ur chin up, cuz it doesnt help. i need jared. and nobodys gets that. nobody agrees, because they dont see things the way i do, nobody does, and nobody ever will. i love jared, and people need to accept that and LET me be with my BOYFRIEND.

Now, since all you hear are my problems with him, (the bad things) here are the good things:

Hes saved my life a couple times, wether it was suicide, or just my breathing problems. He stays with me trough everything, he is the one guy who has been able to handle me and my many problems, even when he has his own, and mine can trigger his, (and vise versa). He is honest, and he is able to maintain maturity, which most young boys dont have, and dont show. He has many friends, he is nice to them, and he doesnt act different when hes around them with me...in fact, hes more cuddly and sweet when we are with his friends. (weird, i know) when you first see him, or meet him, he wont be smiling, but he will always say hi first...he doesnt LOOK like a nice, good, kid. (but none of us punk kids do) He is very easy to talk to, hes extremly gentle and VERRRRRRRRRRRRY sensitive, ive even SEEN him cry. the best part of our relationship is how comfortable we are around eachother. SO comfortable, that i can pig out AND burp, and he even farts sometimes. he isnt rude at all, he has good humor, and he kisses me on the forhead more often then my lips. he is so sweet, and im so in love with him.

but

since the drunken incident, he may have to go to juvi, (he was on probabtion and then he did this) and so we dunno yet. i hope not...well, of course i hope not, we all hope not, and he said he might go to therapy, i can make him if i really wanted him to go, but he wud need to participate, and i cant make him do that. he cant take care of himself all the time...and neither can i, but if we stay storng, maybe we can help take care of eachother, like good friends do.

pray he goes to therapy, this may help keep him out of jail, if he continues to drink they may get tired of his head games and say let him pay the price