[Me and my dog]

Valentines Day should be our 25th anniversary. Before I lost my job, my self esteem and my my mind the plans were a beach wedding on that day to renew our vows. The ocean is her meditating spot. I even called her parents to ask their permission again. We married as kids so it was very simple with not a lot of fanfare so I really looked forward to this.

Fast forward 2 months... I had a job as a construction manager. It wasn't the best paying job, it was a small family company, but it paid the bills and we had our one night a week dinner date. Both kids are married and moved out so we were pretty ok.

Greed. A job was posted for a Division Head in my industry. I told her to send in my resume just for shits and giggles because my job really had turned into a dead end situation. Two weeks later I get a phone call asking me to come in for an interview. We both were like, wow... This could be it, the big chance I'd been waiting for. The interview went really well. They said they would call me by the end of the week to let me know if I would be up for a second one. Two hours later, I got a call asking me if I could come back tomorrow. Hell yes I'll be there! I never took a lunch during my time at my present employer so I felt no guilt in taking a couple long lunches to better myself.

Going to the second interview I did the same as before... took my company truck home, got into my personal vehicle and proceeded south. Once again, great interview. "We'll call you tomorrow to get paperwork started". Went back home, got back in my truck and back to work thinking life is good.

The boss had a PI follow me. Took pictures of every intersection I made a turn on. Going into the interview, coming out of the interview. Fire. On the spot, but I laughed. .. Heck I've just had the world handed to me who cares. I get a couple weeks off between. .. I hadn't had a vacation in years. Life is good.

I go into the new job apprehensive knowing the amount of time and effort it was going to take, but I've been doing this my whole life. Now I'm starting up a new division within a huge General Contractor. Got them their license. Brought in crews and got their certification. Trained them, trained the exist sales force. Got suppliers lined up and when the first job was on the books... fired.

My life has been a downward spiral ever since. I got another job doing the actual labor part that I haven't had to do in some 15 years and my body... it says naw... not gonna do this **** again. Hospitalized. This is why I'm here.

My poor wife has road this roller coaster with me and she's handled it a thousand times better than I... but I'm pretty sure it's over now. Hell I don't wanna be with me right now why would she? Unemployed. Gonna lose the house. I'm a crying unstable mess who doesn't even want to see the sun rise. I just look forward to "good days" and try to avoid wanting to die. If I lose my wife it's most definitely going to be the latter. And God can explain as I'm being sent to hell, why my plan was what it was.

I've rambled enough. Not having someone to talk to sucks. I use this just to get it out and in this case maybe someone can get something outta this. Greed is bad. Very bad. I wanted it all and lost everything in the process. Take what you have... hold onto it so tight and be grateful it's there because in the blink of an eye

[Can't Stop Crying]

it doesn't sound like greed to me...more like an advancement opportunity...try not to be so hard on yourself. be patient with yourself and allow yourself some time heal

[healingme4me]

Sounds ballsy on your first employers part, over two lunches. It was an interview. Could have been doctors. My exes employer puts tracking on their vehicles, but still reprimand comes first. Don't want company equipment used privately. ..but still, sounds like a raw deal.
Having a financial setback is huge. Is there anything she can do, to help? Anything non labor you can do, similar industry?

[Me and my dog]

I fly to NC for a job interview Tuesday. Good news. It's a travel position. Bad news. Hurricane coming Tuesday night/Wednesday. Super bad news. Ya know when it's crappy, it's crappy. Zoloft... take me away

[Can't Stop Crying]

Sometimes I feel like when it rains it pours....good luck with you job interview. Focus on the good news part....I know, easier said than done....

[SnakeCharmer]

Dear Me, I hope the job interview goes well and you avoid the worst of the hurricane.

Because your situation has changed, you can apply for health insurance under the Affordable Care Act through your state's exchange. Because you haven't been working, you'd probably qualify for federal subsidies that would make the insurance free to you or very low cost. It would pay for mental health therapy for depression.

You've been through a lot. You have reason to feel depressed. In today's economy, many decent, hardworking people have found themselves unemployed and in dire financial straits.

Please come back after you job interview and tell us how things went. I wish you the very best of good fortune.