[TryingStill]

Hi once again.

It's been a little while (and yet it seems forever) since I've last posted in here.
I first came, formerly, in order to ask advice about how would my sexual life turn out after being circumcised, which meant a watershed in my life (long story, you can check that thread out if you please).

Things are going ok regarding sex. Undergoing that surgery was one of the wisest choices I ever made.

Yet, it's the mere idea of getting into a relationship what truly troubles me.

I have just turned 30 and (touch wood) girls started to hit on me like never before. It's insane! And it's kinda frightening.

Left alone my foreskin complex (which took its part in how I used to get along with women), it's been two years on since I last was into a relationship with someone. And it was awful. A psychopathic guilt trip from beginning to end. She would accuse me of cheating on her with basically every women on earth, pick on me for any reason, try to put me against my friends and them against me, etcetera. Not to mention what was the icing of the cake: she was unfaithful to me all along, since the very start, and still kept denying it even after I decided to get rid off her.

Though I'm not willing to get into details, I guess you can figure out how it was and what it felt like.

Simply put: I'm scared that it can happen again. I'm unable to find the words to describe it. I'm as scared as they come.

I'm terrified. And I don't want to waste any chance I could be given to being happy, finally, after such a long long time.

[Alone & confused]

Trust is a VERY big issue for me too! But if you don't try, you may miss out on the happiness you deserve! I know it's hard to put yourself out there again after a betrayal, but fear might just cause you to miss out on something wonderful. I hope you don't let that hold you back! The RIGHT one can help you learn to love & trust again. Best of luck to you!

[hamster-bamster]

I do not understand your thought process. You started a thread about infidelity. Then in the body of your OP, you put together a long list of complaints that included infidelity as "icing on the cake", as follows:

"She would accuse me of cheating on her with basically every women on earth, pick on me for any reason, try to put me against my friends and them against me, etcetera. Not to mention what was the icing of the cake: she was unfaithful to me all along, since the very start, and still kept denying it even after I decided to get rid off her."

So if infidelity was icing on the cake, why do you not experience fear that somebody would again pick on you for no reason? pit you against your friends, and vice versa? make false accusations of you?