[Simian Woman]

Hello,
I am 24 and so is my boyfriend. We have been together for nearly 3 years now. Our relationship has been getting better and better for the last 6 months. Recently our sex life has been better than ever and our emotional bond is very strong. We've endured many bad events and stuck it through because our relationship has always been worth it. The whole issue here I feel is related to me. See, when we first got together I found on his history that he'd been looking at girls on Craigslist for fun. This immediately hurt me worse than most things could. I put my full trust into him and this happened, starting my insecurities. He told me he didn't know why he did it, it doesn't make sense but it was probably something he had done before. Well after that I noticed he had been looking at porn. This is something I have a huge issue with because of my insecurity. On top of that my parents were porn addicts and it's something I don't want to associate with, and I have high sexual energy so I don't get the need to look at floozies. Anyway, a year ago it happened after he promised he wouldn't and then I threatened him that I'd break up with him because its something I feel very strongly about. He gave up his smartphone so I wouldn't worry. I know I sound like I'm crazy but I believe a real man doesn't need to look at other females if he's truly 100% committed.
Anyway, things are great, I trust him but there is my insecurity tearing me down again because he wants a new phone and we fought all morning about it. I feel like I'm being stupid for acting like this but it deeply affects me. I'm so sensitive. I can't stand it and my anxiety rules my life. I've never had therapy but I've endured years of pain from previous relationships. I feel like I'm projecting those fears onto him and I feel horrible

[hamster-bamster]

I take it, he gave up his smartphone and now he only wants a cheap basic phone.

Is that right?