[TurtleKid11]

I broke up with a girl a little over a year ago after I god diagnosed with Depression at University. Unfortunately I still associate things with her. I can't move on with my life because of this. An example of this is buckling my seat belt. She would always remind me of buckling my seat belt and now every time I buckle up I think of her then spend 2 hours reliving the relationship and what went wrong and how I could potentially get her back. I cant seem to shake this, I associate success, watching a movie, watching a movie, going shopping, picking up my brother from school, swimming, going to the gym, university, work, and going out to eat with her. I stopped doing these things all together. I feel like a failure for not being in school or working or doing anything. When I think of school, my mind jumps to "I should be doing school for her because once i get my degree she'll want me back" or if I go out to eat my mind goes, "Maybe if I had taken her here and we talked about this then we would still be together" All I do now is play video games and poker and I do make money at both but its just table scraps. The reason I do these is because I don't associate these with her at all. What do I do to stop myself from associating so I can move on?

[kaliope]

can you find new things that you didn't do together? the best thing is to go to therapy for help in letting go.

[Little Lulu]

Your ruminations might not have as much to do with this girl as it does with you are not where you would like to be in your life. A good way to move on with your life is to get invested and enthusiastic about it. If your depression is being treated, then it is time to do like kaliope suggested and get involved in new things, especially ones where you interact with people face-to-face. Who knows, maybe someone new will come along in the process.

[TurtleKid11]

I am in therapy but it's been a year and I've tried all these things. I had a job at a hotel where I got pay raises twice over a 14 week period, I texted her about how successful I was and she didn't care. So I stopped going to work all together told them I got super sick and couldn't work anymore. They still call me from time to time to make sure I'm alive. I really liked work and the people there were awesome but I just couldn't get myself to go anymore. It's not like I haven't tried doing things, just it's gotten to the point where I don't want to try anymore. I feel like if I could get a forget the last 3 years medication I would take it. I just want her out of my head. The best way I can discribe it is like in the movie inception, the main Characters wife is like how she is, except she's not dead.