[Lilly2]

**** YOU! POS!

Speaking in the air to really no one.

Just wanting to get it out - a relational few words that I would have LOVED TO SAY had I had the chance to say it. But I don't, and IRL I'm cool, but there are many people whom I could have said those words - MANY!

As a person with DID and PTSD, my "parts" keep telling me to "grow a pair." Well, here you go, "parts," I'm saying the two words I wish I would have said at the time, even though I really don't think that it's a thing that should be said because then it just feeds into other noxious people's egos. They like provoking a response, even if they don't like the response. What they don't like is when you ignore them, call them out (without anger), negatively reinforce their provocations, and get them into trouble with the authorities when warranted legally. That's my version of asserting myself. But, I'll play along with emotion this time, without placating my "parts." Fine, I said it to everyone who has wronged me, hurt me, or abused me, "**** you!"

(Of course, I leave room for forgiveness and apologies and all that good stuff, if warranted or the right timing.)

[Imokay2]

I would like to echo that sentiment in the most sincere, heart felt agreement, and hope that next time the opportunity to say it out loud to who deserves to know it, it will come out of my mouth as something that really makes them change

[Lilly2]

Originally Posted by Imokay2

I would like to echo that sentiment in the most sincere, heart felt agreement, and hope that next time the opportunity to say it out loud to who deserves to know it, it will come out of my mouth as something that really makes them change

Thank you!

I'm sorry you were hurt in that way, too.

Some people are too prideful or lack something in their brains to change, unfortunately. Until they come up with a cure for such people, or an adequate form of therapy, that is if they ever seek true therapy for themselves and their vile behaviors, they won't listen. It's enough for us to seek help and protect ourselves, and if letting off steam heals me, I will do it. Not that I would say it out loud, but I won't lie, I probably have - but those were rare occurrences.

(((safe hugs)))

[Imokay2]

Well said Lilly!

[Taylor27]

Well said Lilly

[Fuzzybear]

Well said, Lilly. Good post.

[Lilly2]

Thank you guys. I was afraid of my own words, but I feel better now because I got them out.

I can relax now.

It helps to be heard, and even more to be understood.

[LilyMop]

Sometimes you just need to get all that stuff out.

[continuosly blue]

“It helps to be heard, and even more to be understood “ [/QUOTE]

One of the greatest quotes of all time. Words not understood mean nothing.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Lilly2

**** YOU! POS!

Speaking in the air to really no one.

Just wanting to get it out - a relational few words that I would have LOVED TO SAY had I had the chance to say it. But I don't, and IRL I'm cool, but there are many people whom I could have said those words - MANY!

As a person with DID and PTSD, my "parts" keep telling me to "grow a pair." Well, here you go, "parts," I'm saying the two words I wish I would have said at the time, even though I really don't think that it's a thing that should be said because then it just feeds into other noxious people's egos. They like provoking a response, even if they don't like the response. What they don't like is when you ignore them, call them out (without anger), negatively reinforce their provocations, and get them into trouble with the authorities when warranted legally. That's my version of asserting myself. But, I'll play along with emotion this time, without placating my "parts." Fine, I said it to everyone who has wronged me, hurt me, or abused me, "**** you!"

(Of course, I leave room for forgiveness and apologies and all that good stuff, if warranted or the right timing.)

This is how I feel all the time.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Imokay2

I would like to echo that sentiment in the most sincere, heart felt agreement, and hope that next time the opportunity to say it out loud to who deserves to know it, it will come out of my mouth as something that really makes them change

I feel the same way. I want to say it to someone who deserve it.