[Abdullah Life]

I Never Been In Loved ( Friends & Family ) My Family They Never Trust Me Ever .... My Friends They Makes Me Feel Lonley All Time I Do Everything To Them & I Give Them Everything But In The End No One Show Me Some Respect & Love & No One Appreciated What I Do To Them ... It's To Hard To Me To Make Real Friends I Don't No Why ? II Never Been In Relationships ... I Tried Many Times But I Can't ... I Tried To Find a Real Queen But I Can't ... I Do Everything For That But Nothing ... 15 Years For Nothing ... Now I Live This Life a Lone ... No One Stand With Me Or Support Me ... Sometimes I Really Help People But I Can't Help My Self ... If I Want To Talk To Someone I Can't Cuz I Don't Have That Person Who Will Understand Me ... I Feel Down Everyday & I Can't Sleep Everynight ... When I Saw Somefriends Can Make New Friends In Nightclubs I Feel Like I'm Not Cute Person & I'm Not Like Handsome People ... I Ask My Self Alwayz ... Why Me ? I Never Do Something Wrong To These People ... Why These People Never Accept Me As Real Friend ... I Don't Need Anything From Them ... I Just Need To Have Real Friends ... That's All ... OMG I Really Crying Everynight Cyz Of This ... Why Me ... Is That So Hard To Find Real Friends Or Find My Queen ... Suicide It's Better Thing ... No More Hurts & No More Pains ... I Don't No What These People Need ... I Never Drink & I Never Smoke ... I Do What Makes Me & Makes People Happy But In The End Nothing Change ... Help Me Please

[avlady]

i'm sorry you feel soo bad!!! friens can be hard to make especially good ones. i have few friends myself i basically stick with family. most of my friends in my neighborhood moved away in the past 2 years and i am also lonely here and only friends are from here on pshyc forum. i know how sad it feels to not have a friend in the world too as i felt that way in high school too. i wasn't popular, an introvert, i'm have a son now who is going through the same thing about meetin people and he is going to see a doc for ADD. i hope you do meet some people here who relate, i know i do, please don't hurt yourself you are a good person.

[shezbut]

Sorry that you're feeling so alone and misunderstood. Have you gone in to see a doctor for help? Your description sounds a lot like depression to me, and we often need to get our brain chemistry back in order (as well as talking with others) to help us get through daily life. There isn't a quick and easy fix, unfortunately. But, things DO start to get better when we get help.

(((best wishes)))