feeling even more alone now.

I found myself thinking that I need more help than what I have been searching.. I am currently seeing a therapist who I see once a week. I like him a lot, but lately it has been too much for me. I was told yesterday that I am more alone now than ever and it actually feels that way. I have gone through my ups and down since I was a child, but for once I can't seem to get out of this hole that i have created. I feel so sad, I cry for everything, I feel depressed, I sleep way too much, i get angry right away, I just feel so out of place. My wife told me this morning you are just being a selfish dramatic queen bc i had a panic attack and i kept trying to call her and it was bad. I honestly do need help and just someone to talk to who won't say mean things or call me selfish or think i am faking my emotions.. I just want to be okay again. for once i just want to be okay because this isn't me and my son needs me. my wife and I were seperated for about almost a year and her ex gf and my ex gf kept sending me messages from different numbers to the point where it got really bad and told me to hurt myself.. that my so would be better off wihtout me... to make sure i paid my life insurance.. it was bad... i have never felt so stuck in such a bad place... my wife just doesn't see it.... it breaks my heart.. it honestly breaks me even more knowing that she can call me horrible things and just act like she doesn't care.

Are you seeing a pdoc for your depression? Also, perhaps try marriage counseling.

Ultimately, we can't rely on others to make us happy, but a marriage is a partnership and it sounds like she isn't being supportive.