[Marchmars]

I don't like people who easily hurt others' feelings without thought, even though they don't mean to.
But suddenly I've started doing like those people.
I use aggressive expressions in embarrassing situations.
So I don't want to talk with others to avoid hurting them.
Seriously, I talk less than before. (This decision could come from depression.)

Especially I rarely talk to my family. Maybe because this problem was discovered by my father.
Today I was with friends in my church. And there was my older sister. She said I made a big mistake. I used a offensive expression, "so what?" to a guy. And she told me she was very nervous at that moment.
But actually, I still don't remember. Or maybe I used it when I talked with another guy about my story, not intending to criticize him.
I told my sister it might not be true. However, she said, "anyway, it wasn't appropriate to say "so what." And parents told me what she said would be true. My parents trust her more than me.

I don't want to speak. But I should think about how to deal with the situation when someone get hurt due to my aggressive expressions.
I have no idea how I could change my attitude.

I don't have social phobia yet. I like meeting new people. But I'm not sure when I would have it. Well, it might become another big problem sometime.

[LindaLu]

This sounds uncomfortable with your parent believing your sister. Do you sometimes say aggressive things and forget right away? Keep a diary to see if this situation happens again, or if it does, how often? Maybe your sister wants to criticize and feel powerful. That would be aggressive!

Don't pull away from people before you even know if there is a problem in how you speak. That is how a journal/diary can help you.

I am an American and we are different over here, but we may say several rude/aggressive things a week. That's wrong to do, but I try to start the next day being nicer with people. It's hard but keeps the mind healthy.

Like the American saying goes "if you fall off your horse, get back on it right away."