[CenTex]

I am 55 years old and live a happy life. Married with grown children. Recently I starting thinking about a girl from 1979 that I had romantic involvement. She died of cancer in the late 80's. We haven't talked or have seen each other since 1980. Just all of a sudden, out of the blue I started thinking about her. It enveloped my world. I brought a picture of her up as a screen saver at work. Staring at her face nearly brought me to tears. My hart ached. I was full of anxiety and depression from the thoughts of what could have been. I felt this obsession taking over. I took the picture down because these feelings started to frighten me. The feeling of urgency has pass, but I still find myself thinking about her every day. What is going on here?

[healingme4me]

Maybe there was something about the relationship that you shared with her, that's missing in your life? Maybe you were unable to grieve properly after she passed away? Wondering about the what ifs seems to occur at a certain point in time. When prior to that point, life was too busy.