Hi! I'm new here and created an account pretty much just for this. I'll try to get to the point as quickly as I can. I'm a female in my late teens, have previously attended therapy (even a residential) and for (pretty much) as long as I can remember, I've been unable to form connections with people. This may sound terrible, but I really don't care about anyone. Friends, family, so on and so forth. I don't actively hate them or wish bad things upon them, but I wouldn't truly care if they did either. I know I have people who love and care about me (or so I'm told), but I can't say the same. I would have no problem hopping on a bus tomorrow and never seeing them again. Next, on the topic of romantic relationships, I can become "interested" in someone for a short time. The second they show interest back, I'm almost disgusted with myself for "liking" them in the first place. I truly fear that I will always be alone for the rest of my life. But I'm unsure if that may be what I subconsciously want? I feel like I'm only truly concerned about myself? Even more odd is that I fantasize about falling in love, etc. But I push away every chance I get. Any thoughts on this are much appreciated.

Have you had people related trauma in your life that makes you feel a disconnect from others? There are many things that can make on feel this way. What is your current dx? (you dont have to say) I only ask about the dx cause many disorders can cause a type of detachment. Is it just people you are detached from?

Originally Posted by ChaoticInsanity

Have you had people related trauma in your life that makes you feel a disconnect from others? There are many things that can make on feel this way. What is your current dx? (you dont have to say) I only ask about the dx cause many disorders can cause a type of detachment. Is it just people you are detached from?

Not that I can recall? I've felt rejected by people plenty of times,but I feel like that's relatively common. I've been diagnosed with depression, NLD, and ADD (which I seem to have grown out of). And I'm particularly detached from people, but I feel like there's a general emptiness in my life. I'm not really attached to my possessions either... Also thank you so much for the response! I really appreciate it!