[Jimmy77]

Dear world .. I have come to tell u how I'm suffering from the worst thing one could suffer .. I've graduated from university and sit down doing nothing until I obsessed about a girl wanting her attention helping her out doing whatever she wants .. She became the only thing I'm focusing on suddenly I fell in love with her and everything was cool but she didn't say if she do but she's talking a lot to me so what did I do ? I searched Google all the time if she loves me and if they love her anyway just when I drained all my thoughts on google for days I thought she loved me ( it's a delusion) I started not loving her back ( as a delusion as well ) I became to show off that I have a girlfriend .. Time passes and all my mind was filed with her from the Google thIng I never stopped doing it's like ocd can't stop thinking about her she had me mixed feelings as she loves me she loves me not untIl I walk up one day with no control i told her that I love her and when she refused I lost my mind I became schezophernic I'm waking up feeling dying and can't control my mind I told her I want a break but she's my best friend when she said ok i cried but I'm still trapped i don't know I can't forget her I know i made mistakes I killed my life I'm trapped she's my obsession and whenever she's far I'm dying but she don't love me and I can't forget her 5 days passed I can't control my eating behavior I can't focus I lost my mind all I want is 3 months backward to change my situation I'm in a place where no way out