[Macd123]

Okay so it's about being obsessed with a younger woman so I feel a little criminal about the whole thing. I've kinda been walking around in a surreal bubble all week because of the anxiety level. This walking around hoping things will get better is s real exercise in hell. You just wait for your skin to peel off so you can't breathe again. I keep telling myself that I'm practically a senior citizen but logic is a pretty useless tool when your mind is consumed by lust towards something. I keep feeling that I'm stuck in some sort of bad stalker movie the only problem is I'm the creepy guy not the hero - I'd love to be the hero just once. So sitting down tomorrow with my therapist and explaining all this is not really where I want to be at this point. Maybe I should have got the guts to approach someone earlier in my life than I would bouncing my grandchildren on my knees instead. Thanks.

[divine1966]

Just take one day at a time and focus on here and now. No need to worry about what should've or could've happened. Good luck

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(((hugs)))

I think the age difference was secondary to the level of obsession that you had. I am not being sarcastic or anything (tone is impossible here...) but I imagine that the therapist will be more concerned with helping you understand that making one person responsible for your happiness is not a good thing.
It has a lot to do with perspective and balance, imho.

Good luck. Report back when you can and if you feel that it would be a good thing to do.

Good luck, Macd123!

Hi Mac, feeling nervous is natural, just remember that doctors are professionals - they are not there to judge you or brand you as a criminal. Good luck!

[s4ndm4n2006]

Originally Posted by Macd123

Okay so it's about being obsessed with a younger woman so I feel a little criminal about the whole thing. I've kinda been walking around in a surreal bubble all week because of the anxiety level. This walking around hoping things will get better is s real exercise in hell. You just wait for your skin to peel off so you can't breathe again. I keep telling myself that I'm practically a senior citizen but logic is a pretty useless tool when your mind is consumed by lust towards something. I keep feeling that I'm stuck in some sort of bad stalker movie the only problem is I'm the creepy guy not the hero - I'd love to be the hero just once. So sitting down tomorrow with my therapist and explaining all this is not really where I want to be at this point. Maybe I should have got the guts to approach someone earlier in my life than I would bouncing my grandchildren on my knees instead. Thanks.

You say younger woman then you point out you feel criminal about it. My question to you is why does that make you feel criminal? is she not of legal age even? because being attracted to women far younger than us is not criminal at all even if taboo by some peoples standards. I ask not because I am minimizing whether the obsession is bad or not but don't want you piling on more guilt that isn't necessarily earned.