Paralyzed with Fear

I've been married for a year and a half, my husband is great, granted he has some issues. He has "hormonal changes" and no I don't mean PMS, I mean he goes from an emotional **** storm to anger that could kill Hulk, but he's my Hulk. He's put up with alot from me, from my family shunning him and shaming him when they first found out that we eloped, to locking me up in the house basically not letting me see him, or talk to him, or skype him.. they took everything. I already had issues with my family this just pushed me AND him over the edge. I went for a walk. took a bag, and told them where to come get me, 5 hour drive up 5 hour drive back. we're well over 6 ft... in a fiat.. sure yuck it up folks. Well March 6th sickness rezided once more, this time paralyzing me from the waist down, a week in the hospital and they told me it'd wear off, I'm at 1 month as of tomorrow, and guess what! no change -.- March 20th I got sick AGAIN, this time it took te muscles in my neck, forearms, and bladder muscles, yet still no answers. My family didn't know and I hadn't spoken to them in a long time. Like since the day I left. We threw out the sim, gave the phone to his mum and went our merry way. However he didn't spend much time this past visit to the hospital, and I went into a SEVERE bipolar low, I started only seeing the stuff that has happened in that year and what all he had done, whether I was part of it or not, I told my 2 sets of parents and my grandparents, hell I even told the nurses and security guards that had 2 cops come check on him at home.. how can I ever take that back since my parents came that Saturday to remove me from the situation and now I'm stuck 5 hours away from the man that loves me, hell if you straight cath your wife without puking. Dude, that's love. He wasn't thrilled but now I can't take it all back. it's too much damage control and I'm stuck! I want to go home. I fear I'm gonna lose the bridges I built this over.. Please any suggestions?

Have you tried: "I'm sorry."?

yeah my family says it's empty words, only actions speak.

Thanks

It really looks like you are going to have to make your life work the way it is. In time, your family may reconsider, but I think you are going to have to make a go of it with your current situation. Best of luck.