[Yismymindblank12]

I'm done, the people I was with yesterday. I shouldn't extend or put the work being friends with people when I'm not in a state to be there. I felt used in some sense. I was right I was, she blew me under like I was yesterdays news. told me how much she loves me, then right when I was about to go on a date with her, oh I gotta bf he loves me alot, sorry we can't have sex anymore we can be friends and not have sex, to now, you're a f ing failure, you always do something that pisses me off, I'm tired of you and your ****.

Like seriously and I gave her rides she got me weed and paid me back yeah she's a friend in some regard, but not emotionally. She just gets mad at me.

She was so fake.

I hate people, I opened up to her and I was an idiot what I intended before, but I feel offended on my intelligence how this girl treats me.

I don't even want friends. I don't want to smoke weed anymore period. I don't want to be here. I chose to ignore her and stop smoking.

I'm just overwhelmed how stupid I feel, that I can't make anything work. I'm the **** up.

[Yismymindblank12]

Ok yesterday, we got her friends they trashed my car and yeah it was fun smoking driving around, but damn I know something bad will happen if I continue to be around them.

I was left out alot, even though it's a new group of people I associated with, but now I don't even want it anymore.

It felt so fake, and the drama was all ****.

This girl got mad at me again, because I said, "I'm going to this girls house to smoke later and crash."

She flipped out on me immediately saying, "I don't care about any of the *****es you have sex with. I don't want to hear it, you're pissing me off, you always been getting on my nerves now. Like I really want to punch you in the face now."

I replied that this isn't even what you're talking about,

She goes on trying to prove I'm talking about sleeping with a random girl.

Truthfully I wasn't planning on it, I didn't want to be here. I was being casual, but she took it to a whole new level.

She's really jealous or just angry or spiteful about me always, she's really nasty, but comforting.

I'm cutting her off, and I don't care how mad she gets I don't care if she sends her hoodlum friends to jump me or get me. I don't care how many bruises or scars I get. I just want to be left alone.