[black-roses]

Mmm... I just realized why I don't fall for people who like me. I am afraid of needing someone to care for me I feel like they won't do it. So that is why I can't get close to anyone... I have become so self reliant on myself making myself so strong that I well never need love it's what I do everyday telling myself I am all I need so I am never reliant on relying on someone because I couldn't when growing up. I saw my mother take care of my dad and I felt I would have the same man not caring not really existing I feared I would be the only one working in the relationship. That is why I leave after I get close to them I am afraid of having to do everything on my own in relationships. unsure emoticon. I fear I will end up alone and neglected in relationships.

[healingme4me]

Sounds insightful. If relationships aren't something for you, right now, in your life, then what are you going to focus on?

Why not taking things step by step. Get close first and stay and see what happens. We cannot predict the far future, but we can make an educated guess from the current situation.