[black-roses]

It's been a while in planning and now finally in july 28 I will be staying in portugal with family but what my mother didn't know was I was worried about being hurt. You see when I was 14 my uncle wanted to sleep with me and I was worried the other uncle's could be like that. You see one of my uncles daughters wanted to come to australia to study marine biology but she was going to live with the uncle that tried to groom me. basically I am on edge because this uncle wouldn't help another boy from the family but seems to be so willing to help a gorgeous 19 year old who has never had boyfriend is quite innocent and even looks a lot like me. Not only do I have to worry about not being hurt in portugal I have to worry about a gorgeous girl not being raped. The thing is this would have been solved ages ago if mum let me go to the police with tge disgusting messages but no I had to be carrying this pain on the inside forever messing up how I see men etc. Now I have to deal with the pain and anger of not being able to do more to protect this girl. I am in agony I understand why my mother wouldn't want me to testify it would be like reliving the whole ordeal just to not be believed or classified as crazy. I just want people to understand how this has forever changed how I view my sexual identity and sexuality in general and like hell I am letting a cousin of mine go through that over my ****ing dead body!!!!

[Skeezyks]