[black-roses]

I've been feeling great very well my friendships and family relationships have improved, I've been doing a lot more for myself to like cleaning my room, cooking food, I'm also more tidy. Mum has become calmer and I notice she seems to lecture me and parent me a lot less. I feel like we've grown together and become friends. Our relationship is more equal now it's not all mum give and me take I've been pulling my own weight. I haven't her say that she's worried for my future for weeks which must mean that something I am doing is working. Volunteer work perhaps? Hanging out with friends? Either way she's happier now she's nagging that I do something but I am doing it wrong but I do things my own way and if it works and vets the sheets clean err (carpet stain remover then wash) Then I am pretty happy to clean up and take responsibility for my mess. As for energy levels they've been great and my motivation has been great too. I find I am taking day by day rather then hypothesized and worrying at the future. It has been great because I find my self confidence and reassurance is growing all by itself so I am pretty happy. This is everything I've been waiting for the day I could rely on myself and it couldn't have come more on time. I'm so happy I got over that hurdle and now I see myself being able to have an equal relationship with someone. I haven't gotten to thinking about kids cause that still overwhelms me but at least now I know I am not useless anymore. That I am a women with a lot to offer with a bright future ahead of her and all I look forward is for all the pieces of the puzzle to fit in perfectly now.

[gayleggg]

Congratulations. Sounds like you are doing very well and that's always encouraging.