My family and I went to a restaurant. We're 2 brothers (I'm the middle) and parents.
During our way to the restaurant I joked about World of Warcraft (video game) with my little brother and my father attempted to hush me when we were on our way to the restaurant as I enthusiastically talked about it. I externally ignored it and continued talking about it. He emotionally ranted about it in a "don't you have anything else to talk about?" manner.

Now I have an extremely high sensitivity to negativity, they have a bad impact on me deep inside. I have depression I believe comes from my father's anger issues, especially during childhood. I took allot of burden because of his own inner problems over the years, lots of discouragements, hardly any encourages. The discouragement had more energy than the encouragements (the bad would be said loudly and angrily, while the good would be said silently and calmly).

So during the restaurant, I found myself falling to depression. What I know is negative statements take time to drop me down from inside, so all my life it's been hard to tell what cripples me down, but now I know. They depress me. So near the end I confronted my father about this, not understanding why he finds a problem with talking about a specific subject with my brother, and considering my attempts of recovery he should be more thoughtful. He said his own reasons as to why he did that, didn't apologize but put me down more by saying a "It's your choice to feel bad" kind of statement.to which he replied "ok, then I won't deal with you". He also asked "Don't you care whether this subject interests other people around you or not?"
Me: "No I don't care, I talked about it with my little brother"
Him: "See? So it's about you!"
Things got more heated I said to him in the face "I feel bad because of you", more angrily.
He ranted a "Selfish you(me) and the world" statement, to which I replied "You are not the world".
He's biased, irrational and all my life I had to take those burdens not just at home, but outside of home, because of HIM.

I sat at our outdoor parking spot and my mom came, told me she talked to him about this. He told her he did not mean to offend me and that he felt threatened by me.
She said we both have to make an effort to improve the situation.
I told her as a son, I have to see an example from my father, only then I will improve.
She also told me that I can next time tell him about my feelings more gently.
I had an experience where I apologized gently about something minor which irritated him badly. Instead of forgiving, he continued ranting angrily. So being nice and gentle won't work, and I don't intend to be nice and gentle. He doesn't deserve it. He's the one who must SHOW (not just say) it's possible, else I won't improve for him. It doesn't work that way. This means I keep taking his own burden with me.

My mom told me she was torn inside from seeing me like this, and said she will think of something to work it out. I felt she was in deep inner grief, so I hugged her.

I don't know what else to say. I kinda feel like crying a bit.
I just hate those trapped feelings caused by having had to contain such burdens over my lifetime. I want to take care of the cause of depression, and if I have to "seem threatening" to do it, I will.
I don't deserve the burden of others.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sory to hear about this. Crying can be helpful and it can make you feel better afterwards.. still, the pain reamins.

I guess you can just try to avoid contact with him as much as you can..

[TishaBuv]

I have three sons. I can't tell you how much I have listened to them talk about their video games. Of course I don't care about the games. I don't even understand what they are saying. But I love my kids, so I listen, and am glad that they are with me and talking about what they enjoy.

My h does get a little annoyed about them going on about something. Maybe a father does feel threatened in some way by his sons. Sometimes, my h will ignore them and just start talking over them, cutting them off. But, no, we never had as much a confrontation as you did.

You dad's a bit of a d*ck. Sorry.

One funny story about WOW, once. My h and I went out to dinner with these wild friends who were swingers (we are not). When we got to the restaurant, we met this other swinging couple. They said to us, "Oh, you are (his character's name's) parents. We play WOW with your (14 year old) son!" I was a little concerned about what the hell my son might be doing in his World of Warcraft.

I hope you and your dad can find some common ground and your relationship improves.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you went through this especially as you are sensitive about negativity (I am to). You'll need time to process this because it wasn't minor to you.

Hope you feel better soon and things improve between you and your dad. I agree. He was being a bit of a horse's ***.

Vibrating Obsidian, I'm really sorry you have to deal with this kind of treatment and behavior from your own father. What a jerk. I'm glad you stand your ground. It reminds me of my dad and family. They're pretty dysfunctional. I got shushed a lot for having fun, growing up. My brother's step daughter called my mom the "fun police". But I digress. I hope you feel better soon.

Thanks.
I just managed to recover a bit by drawing. I haven't drawn in a long time.
Before that, I had feelings of burden and couldn't do anything I enjoy.
During my drawing, I had feelings that something is going to outburst in my family, such as a harsh argument, divorce, because she's the main bridge and connector of the family. Were it not for her we wouldn't be eating together on weekends and even going to the restaurant today. My father is such a sitting stone (he's been a stay-at-home for about 8 years)!
I have a feeling my mom keeps so many burden feelings bottled up, too. She loves keeping things optimistic and happy...
I fear the outburst that could come, but something in it seems necessary...
Can someone help me out? It's a bit dreading.
Though... the drawing has significantly helped.