I crave love right now. Unfortunately, I am in no position to date or even try to make a lot of friends right now because I am too busy.

I work and go to school and I am also going to be starting an online business. I am far too busy for dating or anything.

My cravings for human companionship have been getting so strong lately that I am contemplating just dropping out of college so that I can free up time and just focus on my online business full time while getting a part time job in fast food or retail to support myself in the meantime instead and use some my spare time to improve social skills so that I can get better at talking to women. I can't endure 4 years of this kind of responsibility when I have been struggling most of my life.

I can't continue to be lonely and miserable while I spend the time on school, especially when my goals in life are more entrepreneurial in nature and don't require a college degree to accomplish. Even now, I am doing poorly in school because I am so overwhelmed with everything emotionally. If I keep going the way I am with my grades, than I might as well just drop out anyways because I will probably get kicked out for a low GPA. Besides, I am not college material anyways because I always struggled in a classroom setting since public school because I was too emotionally unstable and had to be placed in special ed classes.

Not to mention, if I finish a 4 year degree, I will be 30-31. I have never experienced love and I don't know what it feels like to date or kiss a girl. I have had sex once and that was with a prostitute because I was desperate to feel what it's like since I couldn't get any girls to have a genuine interest in me.

I can't want 4 years. Life is too short to be this unhappy.

[MickeyCheeky]

I can relate to your struggles

[Travelinglady]

Darkness, have you tried therapy--especially with a female therapist? I got a lot of help--and still do with therapy.

[Sunflower123]

Darkness, I know you are struggling. Can you go after what your gut is telling you will make you happy? If you drop out of college can you go back if you need to?

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

Darkness, have you tried therapy--especially with a female therapist? I got a lot of help--and still do with therapy.

If I could make it to a therapist I would consider going. As I've stated in several threads of mine already though, it isn't feasible for me to make it to a therapist when I don't drive and I work and go to school. I can't even make it to see my case manager and I'm having to stop receiving services from them because of transportation so what makes you think I could make it to a therapist?

And no, a student therapist isn't enough. I see the student therapist at my school but I can't get her to start me on an actual treatment plan so all I do with her is vent and talk about school related issues that I have.

I dropped a class today so I will stay in school for now. I will just take less classes for the time being so that I can focus more on my business, working, and personal and professional development.

This is the only viable option that I see for me. If I drop out right now, I would be losing too much.

As for the love thing, I honestly don't see that happening for me in the foreseeable future. I crave some kind of love but it isn't reasonable for me to expect it when I don't have anything to offer anybody yet. Until that changes, it is foolish for me to even try to seek out female companionship.

I have had to drop out of school in the past Darkness, there is no shame in taking it up later or never at all. School isn't for everybody. I had finished a year of my degree when I left, but a professor from the program is willing to let me back in and even offered to write a personal note so I don't need to re-apply to the college. I plan to go back in a year and finish the degree. There are lots of people, our age and much older, who finish their degrees later than the norm and that's perfectly fine.

That being said, I encourage you to stay in college and make it through if you can because it may be a pain down the line having to re-apply for college, loans, etc.

As for the female companionship, have you tried online dating before? I've tried it in the past with some success, and some interesting experiences! I'm afraid I don't have any good dating advice, seeing as I met my partner on this very website. You never know where you'll find that special someone.

Originally Posted by scaredandconfused

I have had to drop out of school in the past Darkness, there is no shame in taking it up later or never at all. School isn't for everybody. I had finished a year of my degree when I left, but a professor from the program is willing to let me back in and even offered to write a personal note so I don't need to re-apply to the college. I plan to go back in a year and finish the degree. There are lots of people, our age and much older, who finish their degrees later than the norm and that's perfectly fine.

That being said, I encourage you to stay in college and make it through if you can because it may be a pain down the line having to re-apply for college, loans, etc.

As for the female companionship, have you tried online dating before? I've tried it in the past with some success, and some interesting experiences! I'm afraid I don't have any good dating advice, seeing as I met my partner on this very website. You never know where you'll find that special someone.

Yeah, I am going to stay for now. I dropped a class today so I eased up my workload a bit. Now I just have to catch up on a month's worth of work that I got behind in in a week so I need to get off this site and get some binge studying done. At least I have a pack of monster energy drinks ready lol

I don't feel ready for dating yet, but I may try in the future. Poor social skills are holding me back right now. In 2 more days when the rest of my money gets in, I am planning on financing a few courses; one has to do with improving charisma and another has to do with marketing skills which I intend on using for my online store but they also could come in handy for online dating.

Here is the social skills building course that I'm putting a great deal of faith in for those who are curious:

How to Talk to Anybody — An I Will Teach You To Be Rich Product

This same person also has a number of other interesting courses that I plan on obtaining in the future; especially the Zero to Launch whenever he finally reopens it.

I will just treat this issue that I have with talking to women like I would writing a computer program or a business plan since I'm better at stuff like that than dealing with people.

Good for you! Sounds like you have a better handle on what you want and need to do.

I am glad you worked this out within yourself. I was going to initially advise you not to drop out... so I am glad you found a resolution. Dating and women will always be around, no matter what stage of life or age you are. Plenty of time ahead for all of that. (((Hugs))))

[divine1966]

Don't drop out of school but it's a good idea to ease up your load. Do seek tutoring for classes where you struggle. Also if you have a formal diagnosis of sorts talk to your advisor at school about obtaining accommodations:extended time on tests. Ask about it.

There is nothing wrong with starting to date a bit later in life. Establishing your career and becoming self sufficient first is a good game plan.

Good job in improving in every aspect of your life!!!!

[Artchic528]

I'm always rooting for you Darkness!

Originally Posted by divine1966

Don't drop out of school but it's a good idea to ease up your load. Do seek tutoring for classes where you struggle. Also if you have a formal diagnosis of sorts talk to your advisor at school about obtaining accommodations:extended time on tests. Ask about it.

There is nothing wrong with starting to date a bit later in life. Establishing your career and becoming self sufficient first is a good game plan.

Good job in improving in every aspect of your life!!!!

I'm sticking out school for now. I don't think that I can stick it out long enough for a four year degree, especially since things get much harder later on. I can try to at least finish my associates though.

Still though, the business is still the most important thing to me because I can't be happy working a regular job no matter what kind of job it is or how much it pays. I need independence and I need to be doing things that I enjoy, otherwise, I don't see a point to living.

Now, if I start doing really well with my business in under 2 years, than I will most likely drop out and focus on the business full time and spend time learning relevant and useful knowledge related to what I am doing instead.

Regardless, IDK if I can stick it out this long. I feel like I have missed out on so much because of my issues, with one of those things being dating. I guess I just crave what I didn't get to experience that most young people get to you know?

Originally Posted by Artchic528

I'm always rooting for you Darkness!

Ditto!!!!!!

[divine1966]

Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend

I'm sticking out school for now. I don't think that I can stick it out long enough for a four year degree, especially since things get much harder later on. I can try to at least finish my associates though.

Still though, the business is still the most important thing to me because I can't be happy working a regular job no matter what kind of job it is or how much it pays. I need independence and I need to be doing things that I enjoy, otherwise, I don't see a point to living.

Now, if I start doing really well with my business in under 2 years, than I will most likely drop out and focus on the business full time and spend time learning relevant and useful knowledge related to what I am doing instead.

Regardless, IDK if I can stick it out this long. I feel like I have missed out on so much because of my issues, with one of those things being dating. I guess I just crave what I didn't get to experience that most young people get to you know?

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It's good to have a degree even if associate. If you have that you can get more later going part time or not. But it's good to be able to prove that you have a degree. Be proud of that. We are proud for you.

Well you didn't really miss it as much as you had to delay it due to variety of issues. I would not worry about what other young people might have going on for them, you have your own path. And trust me you can catch up on certain things later. It won't be too late.

[winter loneliness]

Do what makes you feel happy and healthy. Stay in school or focus on yourself or both.

Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend

I crave love right now. Unfortunately, I am in no position to date or even try to make a lot of friends right now because I am too busy.

I work and go to school and I am also going to be starting an online business. I am far too busy for dating or anything.

My cravings for human companionship have been getting so strong lately that I am contemplating just dropping out of college so that I can free up time and just focus on my online business full time while getting a part time job in fast food or retail to support myself in the meantime instead and use some my spare time to improve social skills so that I can get better at talking to women. I can't endure 4 years of this kind of responsibility when I have been struggling most of my life.

I can't continue to be lonely and miserable while I spend the time on school, especially when my goals in life are more entrepreneurial in nature and don't require a college degree to accomplish. Even now, I am doing poorly in school because I am so overwhelmed with everything emotionally. If I keep going the way I am with my grades, than I might as well just drop out anyways because I will probably get kicked out for a low GPA. Besides, I am not college material anyways because I always struggled in a classroom setting since public school because I was too emotionally unstable and had to be placed in special ed classes.

Not to mention, if I finish a 4 year degree, I will be 30-31. I have never experienced love and I don't know what it feels like to date or kiss a girl. I have had sex once and that was with a prostitute because I was desperate to feel what it's like since I couldn't get any girls to have a genuine interest in me.

I can't want 4 years. Life is too short to be this unhappy.

Have you tried scheduling with Google Calendar, to see if you can make time for socializing/dating?

Originally Posted by Vibrating Obsidian

Have you tried scheduling with Google Calendar, to see if you can make time for socializing/dating?

I will admit, I do need to get better at my time management skills. I have been messing up at my studying due to not putting enough time in. I also have been getting burned out lately and when that happens, I default to my typical hobbies that I've been used to in the past like gaming.

I guess I could plan things out on a calendar app. I'm not used to having so much going on in my life at once because I've never had a lot of responsibilities up until this point and I didn't have people to teach me how to do these kind of things so I've been learning on my own as I go.

At least when I finish my apartment move soon, I will free up an extra 3-5 hours in a day due to me no longer being dependent on the buses to get to school/work. This will help me a great deal.